So, what's up folks?
Today has been a kind of weird day. Maybe it's lack of proper sleep, lack of money and no job or just weird dreams. I dunno. I've spent the whole day somewhat in a downer mood. Maybe it's the fact that it's coming up on a year now from when my life and focus completely did a 180 on me. Things were going really good for me; good job, good friends, playing music that I really loved and a girl that I was somewhat smitten with. But that all got thrown for a loop about this time last year. My best friend split on all us out of know where, with no warning. That resulted in the band that I loved more than anything to falter and eventually fall apart. On top of that, one of the most influential and most loved females in my life and one of my closest friends also split and moved back to Idaho. As the months went on, things kept spiraling down. More friends moved away, things with the girl went south and so on.
I guess I still miss those feelings I had this time last year. It was a great period in my life. It was one thing after the other when this stuff went down. It definitely reaffirmed my belief in cycles and how life moves in them. Somehow, chaos theory and fractal geometry fits in that whole belief as well, but that's for another discussion and another time. Anyway, I just miss certain people in my life (even though some of them are unappreciative pricks) and that period.
But as the saying goes, you can't change time, so we move on. I truly feel like a shmuck whining about things, because things could have been worse, and for some people it is. So I probably shouldn't bitch, and I don't mean to. My life is picking back up right now. Going back to school (and so far kicking ass, thank you....although could be doing even better), playing in a band again that I have much fun in, and I've still got awesome people in my life that I cherish more than anything. It'll be a long haul to get back to the peak I was feeling about this time last year, but so be it. Wouldn't be life if you didn't get knocked down a peg every so often to be tested and prove to yourself you still have things to learn and whatnot.
Damn memories anyway.
Ok enough, I'm starting to babble to point of making zero sense.
How are you all doing?
Today has been a kind of weird day. Maybe it's lack of proper sleep, lack of money and no job or just weird dreams. I dunno. I've spent the whole day somewhat in a downer mood. Maybe it's the fact that it's coming up on a year now from when my life and focus completely did a 180 on me. Things were going really good for me; good job, good friends, playing music that I really loved and a girl that I was somewhat smitten with. But that all got thrown for a loop about this time last year. My best friend split on all us out of know where, with no warning. That resulted in the band that I loved more than anything to falter and eventually fall apart. On top of that, one of the most influential and most loved females in my life and one of my closest friends also split and moved back to Idaho. As the months went on, things kept spiraling down. More friends moved away, things with the girl went south and so on.
I guess I still miss those feelings I had this time last year. It was a great period in my life. It was one thing after the other when this stuff went down. It definitely reaffirmed my belief in cycles and how life moves in them. Somehow, chaos theory and fractal geometry fits in that whole belief as well, but that's for another discussion and another time. Anyway, I just miss certain people in my life (even though some of them are unappreciative pricks) and that period.
But as the saying goes, you can't change time, so we move on. I truly feel like a shmuck whining about things, because things could have been worse, and for some people it is. So I probably shouldn't bitch, and I don't mean to. My life is picking back up right now. Going back to school (and so far kicking ass, thank you....although could be doing even better), playing in a band again that I have much fun in, and I've still got awesome people in my life that I cherish more than anything. It'll be a long haul to get back to the peak I was feeling about this time last year, but so be it. Wouldn't be life if you didn't get knocked down a peg every so often to be tested and prove to yourself you still have things to learn and whatnot.
Damn memories anyway.
Ok enough, I'm starting to babble to point of making zero sense.
How are you all doing?
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I don't know if I'll go back to school. I'm partway into three different degrees as it is, I don't think I want to finish any of them.