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I'd love to go into detail about how awesomely bad today was and how much I bemoan my job but in reality I'm just too drunk to care right now, perfect time to update!

Truth is everything is the same, slightly different I suppose but for the most part completely the same. I feel no different yesterday than I did today and my feelings towards work and life are about the same; not enough love in my life and too much stress at work. That just seems to be the way things go these days; I wake up Monday and fall asleep Friday with nothing too out of the ordinary happening in between.

Honestly it's all my fault too; I could do so much more during the week, I could either go out and paint or go see shows or hell just call some friends up and go out of drinks any night of the week but I never do. I think somewhere inside of me I just wan to be the one asked out, It's probably the most egotistical feeling I've ever had I really can't disagree with it. I want to feel loved not because I'm asking for it but because I just receiving it; probably a hard emotion to express in text but pretty simple to understand if you've ever been in the same boat.

Ah well, life is full of dreams that simple can't come true so for tonight I just give into being drunk and happy with my art and give up on everything else. Tomorrow will probably be great as long as I forget about today's problems and just go to sleep remembering the good from day.