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I'd love to start this out with "I've been meaning to update" but to be perfectly honest it's been the last thing from my mind lately. In December I got no less than 4 days off (all month) and unless something happens January will end up being a banner month for me, 2 days off all month, to be honest though these are milestones and accomplishments I would rather never see. I'd also love to joke that at least the pay is good but I'm under paid to start with so double 'not very much' still isn't very much sadly, the one bright side is I've managed to turn all my loneliness and gloominess into bitterness and stress and outside of the fact I'm slightly drunk and questioning weather or not I used to many 'ness' I think that's a bit of an upgrade for me.

The long story short is I know I'm falling, its harder and harder to keep myself in a good mood day to day but I know its coming to a close soon. The long hours and 7 days a week at work are no where near over but I'm coming to grips with everything else and I know from experience It'll all get better when I just recognize this is how things should be.