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h3xl3a

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Jan 4
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Honestly I won't lie, last year was messy, as was the year before. Literally started 2023 with my Mom's death which kinda knocked me a little bit. Then I'd been back and forth between treatments. Now as much as I managed getting by with producing music as a coping mechanism I guess I was slowly getting sick again.

Jump forward to 2024 it was that scenario except I had a friend who did keep planning to meet up, but essentially it just became a thing of me offering to do anything she asked, like she needed anything bought or wanted anything I'd do it no matter what. And the time came in November where I'd been promised to meet her as a birthday gift, except yet again she just found a way around it. And I just wanted a friend who was close by to be able to physically vibe with. Like I was really close to her so I don't get why it messed up so much. I just don't even know nowadays how I'd even go about making friends close by, like I live near Liverpool, England so it's not exactly a popular place for meeting people. But I'd been advised to do something like that by my specialist neurologist, so I at least wanna try and make a change as I already made a bad habit of even basic life things in general. Like forgetting to eat and hardly sleeping. Just want this year to be good. And since everybody here is so so heartwarming I figure I'd at least mention my genuine concerns🥺❤

As for the music producing, I still do it but I don't even have a cover model for that as the friend I was bothering with was the person I always had for it 😫💔

Hope you're all feeling amazing though as every single one of you really do matter 🖤🖤

This was the last thing I did, I uploaded it yesterday to SoundCloud, hope youu like 🥺❤

Take Me Home (Extended Remix)

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h3xl3a:
@fredhincanada Thank you so much! Like I know empathy is really nice, but I think I just like knowing that people get where I'm coming from with this. Like keep in mind this person was not a content creator or anything, she was supposed to be my best friend, but clearly not is what I've learnt. Like I get it if you're friends with someone on OF or they're a content creator and you want to support them but this was friendship. Since when was that so costly?😫 But yess! It's a pleasure to meet you too! I'm always on here, just sometimes too awkward to type on other posts but I wanna get better with it : )
Jan 4
eminerale:
Things sound pretty rough. It sounds like you’re trying hard to find ways to stay positive, and I really respect that. If it’s any consolation, your music is amazing. I created a SoundCloud account just to listen. I hope music production is healing for you - thank you for sharing it. Feel free to reach out if you ever need to talk 🇬🇧
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