h34rt4gr4m

it's so hard to be yourself when everyday from the moment you wake up to the moment you go to sleep, you wish to be someone else. i'm tired of being me. i'm tired of my family, my friends, or lack therof. i'm tired of seeing the same face in the mirror every day, i'm tired of the same body in the mirror everyday. i'm tired of sitting at home and doing nothing. i'm tired of going to other places, only to sit there and do nothing. i'm tired of feeling like i don't belong and am not welcome in this house. i'm tired of being put last after everyone else. i'm tired of rejection and being let down. i'm tired of anti-depressants. i'm tired of being depressed. i'm tired of not feeling mentally well enough to get out of bed. i'm tired of wanting to be someone else. i'm tired of wanting to cry everyday. i'm tired of having my ideas laughed at or put down. i'm tired of people "jesting" and joking at things i care about.

in short, i'm just fucking tired.