gypsyrose

Im sorry about your friend.... I went through the same thing when my friend Nick died...A year after it happened...we also tried to look for his grave..when we did find it , we also someked and left him a can of his favorite beer... he would of liked that... I still love and miss him too this day.... if anything Nick saved all of his friends lifes.... At that time we were do'n way to many drugs... seing him dead made us look at our lifes in a whole new way... we all changed for the better... I know what you mean..I still some times look back at my old life ..and want it back...But things must change..You grow up and people move on ..thats life my friend...Just remember all the good times ....look at it this way ...do you think your friend wanted you to be stuck in the past... ? she would want you to live .....I think both Ellis and Nick made a mark not just in the world but in our harts ...and by doing that they will never be gone...things will be ok....you're 19 ..hell Im just 21...we have some time to get our shit together.... talk to ya soon!





[Edited on Oct 13, 2004 5:44PM]