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I can't believe that I just wrote three papers in about seven hours. And I'm not even off work today. Can't wait to see what I can get done tomorrow. Bleh, it sucks when school just keeps piling up on you. Because that's what I feel like is happening to me. I still have some more Biology work to get done (those three papers were all for Biology). I have to scan something in and finish my powerpoint for my English class, work on my Economics homework tonight late at work, and start my Economics final paper. Shit...and finish my lab paper. I don't have much to do there...but it's going to be hard finding sources.

And...classes are ready to be signed up for on Tuesday. But the classes that I was going to sign up for are pretty much only offered at one time at another campus. Guess I will have to suck it up on that one.

Deftones released their new video for You've Seen the Butcher last Thursday. I'm obsessed with this song and video. Chino is a good looking dude...I think I have a man-crush.


And last...this website is my outlet, and I need to let this out. I have been tired of telling people if I have found someone that I like and that I have something that could potentially lead somewhere. Why? Because it sucks when you find someone, talk a bit, go on a date, it doesn't work out, and then you have to go back and explain to everyone what happened. So I decided to just stop telling people. But, I was talking to this girl for a few days. She was really sweet and nice. We went on a date on Wednesday. After having some burgers and fries, she wanted to rent a movie and go back to her apt. So we did that. 15 minutes into the movie...we don't know what's going on because we were making out. Got a little hot and heavy, and then she asked if I wanted to go and fool around on her bed. What did I say? "Alright." What did I honestly WANT to say? "No." Because as soon as she said that...something clicked with me and I knew right then it wasn't going to work. But I wasn't honest. We ended up having sex, which I am actually not proud of. Some guys would be proud to say they had sex on a first date, but in this case...I'm not. Because I knew I didn't want to be there, but I didn't speak up. We talked about it the day after and she said she could tell we couldn't be more, since she is practically married to her job (National Guard). And she will be dedicated to that for at least the next 6 years. I just needed to vent about that. It's not something I'm proud of, nor have I really told anyone about it. I'm not stressing over it either. Things happen. And even though that was the first sex I've had since March...it wasn't enjoyable. She enjoyed it, it seems. But not for me. It just...wasn't good. She had a happy ending, but not me. Shocked that the girl had one and the guy didn't? Yeah...me too. I would've rather not even have gone on the date to be honest.

Off to work for the night. Get that Economics homework done at the end of my shift.

Until then, also enjoy another song that has been stuck in my head...I've played these guys nonstop for three weeks and don't intend on stopping anytime soon.

Alexisonfire-We Are the Sound


UPDATE

For all of The Walking Dead fans, or just zombies in general...



From The Devil Wears Prada's Zombie EP. All 5 songs are about zombies, links to 3 out of 4 of the other songs are on the video. Enjoy!