it's 2am and i am still awake. why?
I've been packing all day. My office is a horrid mess. I wonder if things will change in the new place. is it in me to maintain a tidy & organized work area? i don't know about that...
anyways, tonight is my absolute last night here (at 277 Lauder -- now you stalkers can eat my dust!!!!)
do I feel nostalgic? no. do I feel deeply connected to this place? no. do I feel like I just want to get the fuck out of here? YES. ..dump every single remnant of Sy's father's shit out, and start off where I left off with my baby in my womb at 5 months starting a life on our own in a humble 1bdrm apt.
Oh man, did I ever take a wrong turn in 2001, taking that man-child back into our lives. but I was hopeful. I wanted to be a part of a family, finally, after growing up struggling with an over-worked, over-stressed, bitter, tired single mom. I don't want to be that person. and I'll do all that I can to make my son smile all the time. that kid is truly a gem.
so I'll be off the great world wide web for a full 24 hours
whatever will happen in my unusual absense.. ? hehe.. I'm just looking forward to the after-move drinks with my friends who will be helping out (I'm buying!). I actually get to stay out all night if I want, since my girl, Dee has volunteered to watch my little guy over night. I have a feeling, though, that I will be dead tired by the time all has been moved over and out. one drink and I'll be face-flat on the bar, guaranteed. nice.
anyways, I'm tired and I'm just rambling absent mindedly.
good-night rare good humans who come here to visit
I've been packing all day. My office is a horrid mess. I wonder if things will change in the new place. is it in me to maintain a tidy & organized work area? i don't know about that...
anyways, tonight is my absolute last night here (at 277 Lauder -- now you stalkers can eat my dust!!!!)
do I feel nostalgic? no. do I feel deeply connected to this place? no. do I feel like I just want to get the fuck out of here? YES. ..dump every single remnant of Sy's father's shit out, and start off where I left off with my baby in my womb at 5 months starting a life on our own in a humble 1bdrm apt.
Oh man, did I ever take a wrong turn in 2001, taking that man-child back into our lives. but I was hopeful. I wanted to be a part of a family, finally, after growing up struggling with an over-worked, over-stressed, bitter, tired single mom. I don't want to be that person. and I'll do all that I can to make my son smile all the time. that kid is truly a gem.
so I'll be off the great world wide web for a full 24 hours
whatever will happen in my unusual absense.. ? hehe.. I'm just looking forward to the after-move drinks with my friends who will be helping out (I'm buying!). I actually get to stay out all night if I want, since my girl, Dee has volunteered to watch my little guy over night. I have a feeling, though, that I will be dead tired by the time all has been moved over and out. one drink and I'll be face-flat on the bar, guaranteed. nice.
anyways, I'm tired and I'm just rambling absent mindedly.
good-night rare good humans who come here to visit