me at work.
This is where I've been spending the last two days of every week lately - doing contract work for the magazine I used to work full time for back when I first dipped my toes into the publication waters. Let's just say the money is very helpful, eventhough it would be a shame and an embarrassment to all professional designers out there were I to share with you what I am making per hour... but listen, I need the money and, aside from my dignity being stripped twice a week, the people are great and the "getting out of the house" factor is even better ......and... now with the money sitch improving, I can justify a weekend trip to visit some ironically tight religiously opposed Calgarians
so... it's funny how things are suddenly on a bit of an upswing... I think sometimes you have to give the finger to the world and just move on, despite its raw deal. I've been sorta down recently and even more so angry - I think a certain slow tron felt that through the atmosphere somehow without me saying anything - that's why I like that guy - we seem to dance on the same wavelength a lot (same with llama boy - but he's been very detached lately, understandably so). Thing is, this place did a lot for me and at the same time it pisses the hell outta me a lot. I took my pix and profile down simply because I don't want to deal with dudes who find me in the hook-up section and try to, well, hook up with me because we live in the same area or we are in the same age group or because they think my ass is nice
I'm here to interact with humans and perhaps make some good social connections, but in no way am I some fish in some fisherman's sea. Men seem to have a way (very generally speaking) of assuming that women are put here for their picking pleasure. nah-uh. not me. I'll do my own "picking", thank you very much. plus, there's a certain lovliness to subtlety...
anyhoo, I suppose I sound like a real arrogant bitch. I'm not - quite the opposite, infact. I think I have "issues" up the wazooooo... issues that I rather not inflict on anyone else. But I'm working on it. EVOLUTION, baby.
ok, over and out. sorry for the cocky ending to the entry.
uberllama:
Be careful when telling the world that things are looking up. It'll have a mind to fuck you. And not in a good way. Regardless, nice to see. I still feel pretty crappy but I've been doing everything possible to fight the bads. Sleep sleep water water cold fx vits sleep water. Don't know if I could tolerate munching on a raw clove of garlic though. Bleargh. The joys of emotional and phyiscal exhaustion.