I believe I have managed to really fall for someone. I have no idea how it snuck up on me and stabbed me in the kidney like it did but I came back from my visit to Eugene filled with a longing to return to one woman and to never look at another again. I can't explain it. I knew we were friends but there is just something tangible in the air between us and it has seized my heart in a vice-like grip. Of course, such things are never easy....complications abound.
While her and I have been quite good friends for a while and have always enjoyed each others' company (I will admit to having crushed on her in the past), seeing her and being with her opened a can of worms in my heart and mind. I could see it clearly that she is attracted to me and truly values my company but that doesnt blind me to the fact that she, of course, is seeing someone. Add to that stew, she is living with him I believe. She referred to him as her roommate when I was with her but I had not the courage to ask if they were still together. I know, I know, the common sense thing would have been to ask her but when did common sense play any role in the trials of the heart?
I suppose the trial is thus: do I follow my mind and leave her and her boyfriend(?) to their ways and simply attempt to wash away my feeleings for her or do I follow the way of the heart and forget about her boyfriend's feelings and tell her/ask her about us?
I have mad an honest attempt to steer away from romance and such things since graduation but I suppose such attempts are folly and it only seems appropriate that I fall off the wagon with as loud a thump as possible.
While her and I have been quite good friends for a while and have always enjoyed each others' company (I will admit to having crushed on her in the past), seeing her and being with her opened a can of worms in my heart and mind. I could see it clearly that she is attracted to me and truly values my company but that doesnt blind me to the fact that she, of course, is seeing someone. Add to that stew, she is living with him I believe. She referred to him as her roommate when I was with her but I had not the courage to ask if they were still together. I know, I know, the common sense thing would have been to ask her but when did common sense play any role in the trials of the heart?
I suppose the trial is thus: do I follow my mind and leave her and her boyfriend(?) to their ways and simply attempt to wash away my feeleings for her or do I follow the way of the heart and forget about her boyfriend's feelings and tell her/ask her about us?
I have mad an honest attempt to steer away from romance and such things since graduation but I suppose such attempts are folly and it only seems appropriate that I fall off the wagon with as loud a thump as possible.