gundamzig

i may have really screwed the pooch today. i went for a job that pays waaay more,but is only temp. Found out that everything i thought i could do with this job and my old job, career wise, was wrong. i may have to run home to MD with no job or home. Smooth move ExLax.

Have you ever gotten to the point where you feel like an empty shell? Nothing but who can complete you can ever make you feel alive, and they aren't there? Why do i always put myself through the wringer, knowing i am to go on alone? Shit, why would ( will anyone) ever read this? i wouldn't deal with someone like me, but only to...
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Just saw Jersey Girl, nice to know Kevin Smith can exist outside Jay and Silent Bob. It's another wonderful example of cheery melancholy. Now, i wonder if i can finally watch Love Actually again w/o slitting my wrists.
Anybody listening?



Wouldn't blame ya if you weren't.

Sweet thing, I watch you
Burn so fast it scares me
mind games don`t leave me
I`ve come so far don`t lose me

It matters where you are

As the sun hits, she`ll be waiting
with her cool things and her heaven
hey hey lover, you still burn me
you`re a song yeah, hey hey


Sweet thing I watch you, hey hey

[The Gathering "When...
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What else can go wrong?!!!!!!!!! i may be getting my first ticket here, and they don't fuck around here. Don't know. i am trying to also get myself to the pint wher i no longer am searching. i am too old and tired of the game. The hunt has almost gone out of me.

i won't jinx the only, potential, good news by talking about...
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What is there to say. Nothing new really, i keep having it shoved in my face that my time has passed, now it is just putting up with it til the end. A friend tells me to not look and it will happen, i have given up.i still wish but that is all. She can't even give me the reason for why anyone would put...
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ha . Told ya noone would take the bait. Still not sure how to pull a negative number.

Created my dating profile. Let's see if it is possible to obtain a negative number of responses. i have been feeling a false sense of security about going out this weekend. Spent over 200 Euro on boots and a jacket. may post pix if i get any. Will anyone see them?

i hate me! What else can i say. i see beautiful couples and knowthat i can never have that. i wisjh that i could end.

Did I disappoint you,
Did I let you down?

Sorry if i offended my 2 officialk friends here, i took out my pain in the wrong way. i just wanted to show the sad luck i have with making friends, etc. Thanks to Kizmet for not lashing back, but being nice.I don't deserve the friends i have, so how couldi blame them for not speaking...
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