gundamzig

i try to drink myself away, it hasn't worked. If anyone ever wonders what kinda life i have vvan see i have 2 friends on the site and they never respond to any of my comments and have never commented on mine. i don't blame them, just is an indicator. i guess i did/do what i do best, help others through the pain and absorb it into me. it's why i know i will never be rescued and happy. i can at least look "life" in the face and be proud i helped others.
PS Anyone a member of hotgoth.net, plz find my profile (Gundamzig) and vote me lower in the standings. i am trying to crush what esteem i may have. i have slid some but not enough. i hate mediocrity and i am not attractice enought o be in the upper percentile. Thanx