gundamzig

What else can go wrong?!!!!!!!!! i may be getting my first ticket here, and they don't fuck around here. Don't know. i am trying to also get myself to the pint wher i no longer am searching. i am too old and tired of the game. The hunt has almost gone out of me.

i won't jinx the only, potential, good news by talking about...
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What is there to say. Nothing new really, i keep having it shoved in my face that my time has passed, now it is just putting up with it til the end. A friend tells me to not look and it will happen, i have given up.i still wish but that is all. She can't even give me the reason for why anyone would put...
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ha . Told ya noone would take the bait. Still not sure how to pull a negative number.

Created my dating profile. Let's see if it is possible to obtain a negative number of responses. i have been feeling a false sense of security about going out this weekend. Spent over 200 Euro on boots and a jacket. may post pix if i get any. Will anyone see them?

i hate me! What else can i say. i see beautiful couples and knowthat i can never have that. i wisjh that i could end.

Did I disappoint you,
Did I let you down?

Sorry if i offended my 2 officialk friends here, i took out my pain in the wrong way. i just wanted to show the sad luck i have with making friends, etc. Thanks to Kizmet for not lashing back, but being nice.I don't deserve the friends i have, so how couldi blame them for not speaking...
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i try to drink myself away, it hasn't worked. If anyone ever wonders what kinda life i have vvan see i have 2 friends on the site and they never respond to any of my comments and have never commented on mine. i don't blame them, just is an indicator. i guess i did/do what i do best, help others through the pain and absorb...
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Sucks. i was so hopeful, then............SHE appeared even though i though she was gone. Then someone who i thought could rescue me won't. I can't blame her, she has been hurt and is avoiding it now. I pray for an end, any end. who cares wins.

Oh well, I leave home later today. Back to Europe after not much fun here. Not even Baltgoth helped. What else did i expect? A new life?

this is boring. Met a new person online, my spiritual double AND she's married. DOH! So little done in 2 weeks and no joy. missed the last goth night while i am here, missed all in fact. If you read this, Hi Ovida.
WHo cares
wins

What else can go wrong. My Mom ( insert snide remarks here) can't take my stuff to hold for me. My brother informed me that I can't hang out here much longer. I have no way to get around and have to look up storage places now. My friends in germany could use help and I am not there when needed when it lools like...
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Made it to Maryland in one piece. bored out of my mind with no way to get around. Whatever