gundamzig

How many believe love is the most important thin out there?

That you should do whatever you have to do to fulfill it?

How many believe we have a finite number of chances, and
after that, we are given no more?
i have know a few whom i could love, but would never look at me that way; or, disappear before i can hold onto...
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Why do i live when so many young men and women died? i see the faces coming back from Iraq and wonder what i did to deserve anything, including breathing.
Don't know if i will have a job, some people think we cost too much.
Thought i had met HER and had a future. Now she has disappeared and no longer responds. One more loss,...
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erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein

i dont know if i should continue on like this. Nothing i have done seems to help or open up any doors in my life. i am too passive to go out and make friends. i prefer they come to me so then i know they really are interested. only 2 incredible people took that step and i am greatful, maybe i will be back....
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For once i had an up night, went to a great show and meant a nice couple from Arizona. Didn't try and hook up, but didn't feel the pressure to do it.

Then someone had to bring up the ex-bitch. In an attempt to remind me how lucky i was she dumped me, someone told me they found out more about her. I didn't want...
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Nice to know that 2 people know i am alive. i try to take solace in the fact that they are both lovely woman at that. i'd hate to think i could drop of the face of the Earth or take a dirt nap and noone would notice or care, at least noone outside my family or people i've met.


PS.;gotta get dolled up for...
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Did anyone notice i was gone?





Didn't think so..........

New Me, ICK! pics if anyone cares to see me a little more dressed up.
My current job told me if I do not give 2 weeks notice and work them, i am ineligible for rehire. If the new job won't push start date back, what to do . More $$$ and having to come home probably and start over vs. the ability to stay...
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i may have really screwed the pooch today. i went for a job that pays waaay more,but is only temp. Found out that everything i thought i could do with this job and my old job, career wise, was wrong. i may have to run home to MD with no job or home. Smooth move ExLax.

Have you ever gotten to the point where you feel like an empty shell? Nothing but who can complete you can ever make you feel alive, and they aren't there? Why do i always put myself through the wringer, knowing i am to go on alone? Shit, why would ( will anyone) ever read this? i wouldn't deal with someone like me, but only to...
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Just saw Jersey Girl, nice to know Kevin Smith can exist outside Jay and Silent Bob. It's another wonderful example of cheery melancholy. Now, i wonder if i can finally watch Love Actually again w/o slitting my wrists.
Anybody listening?



Wouldn't blame ya if you weren't.

Sweet thing, I watch you
Burn so fast it scares me
mind games don`t leave me
I`ve come so far don`t lose me

It matters where you are

As the sun hits, she`ll be waiting
with her cool things and her heaven
hey hey lover, you still burn me
you`re a song yeah, hey hey


Sweet thing I watch you, hey hey

[The Gathering "When...
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