After a lot of consideration-- and after considering other events in the past, just to decide against them-- I'm going to a Match.com hosted wine tasting next weekend. I have no idea how it's going to go. I want to try to meet someone, and I think I've got a good personality once I get to know someone, but I'm not super outgoing at first. I guess the wine is intended to help in that regard.
But I have other reservations. I'm 37 years old-- I don't feel, look, or act like a middle-aged guy, but I'm fully aware that 37 sounds old to anyone still in their 20s. So I feel like I've missed my chance with a lot of people. And a lot of women closer to my age already have kids. I'm not opposed to having kids, but I feel like dating someone with kids makes things more complicated, and more serious right off the bat.
I also can't help but feel like the kind of people who would attend a singles event hosted by an online dating company may not be the best of the best (myself included). I mean, we're all kind of losers, right? That's why we're doing the online dating thing. I mean, I'm going into it with an open mind, and I'm (cautiously) hopeful, but I'm not expecting a lot.
Plus, I'm from out of town. The event is being held in Omaha, Nebraska, and I live about an hour and a half away, in a smaller town. So even if I do hit it off with someone, it feels unfair to whoever I could meet. It's like "Hey, nice to meet you-- just so you know, a long-distance relationship is the best I can offer you right now." I think my location is a strike against me.
So, I don't know how this is going to go. But I need to at least try to meet someone. Hopefully I'll have the time to come back here next week and write about how it went. And hopefully I'll have something to write about-- either that it went well, or that it went so poorly that I have a good story.