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Do I think, am I headed in the right direction? I see a glimmer of light somewhere down the tunnel maybe it's just my imagination. I'm just trying to work hard so I can relax at the end of my day and look at that day and say, hey I did everything I could. I stood my ground, I battled it out, I did things right today. I just get crazy blind spots in my pysche somehow. At times I can't see the good in me at all even though I'm admittedly, even quite possibly submerged in it. I just don't see it correct from up close. Am I standing in my way of vision? Can I step aback and look in? My life, filled with crazy blessings and all I can see are mysterious circumstances surrounding my good fortunes rather than recognition for my own hard work. I get mad depressions somedays. The shit is disgusting and fascinating at the same time. I just want peace of mind. I don't have it though, so I guess I just stay hungry for it. It pushes me further to reveal the best.