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Words cannot describe the pain I'm in right now... My throat is killing me... my head hurts...and my right ear feels like a leprichan crawled into my head and is trying to drill his way out... my cold has turned into the most unbearable pain I've ever experienced... I was at Jessica's house waiting for her to get dressed and the pressure in my ear kept building...and building...and building... then she stepped out looking drop-dead gorgeous... her hair was still wet and curly, and she was wearing the pair of jeans I love so much on her and this cute little sweater thing... but the pain was too much, I couldn't go out that night...she understood and walked me out, then called to check on me later.. I went to the local Urgent Care and the doctor said a tube in my ear had swollen so it was nearly shut and fluid (mucus and ear...stuff) was building up behind my ear drum because it couldn't flow properly through the tube... so it was literally pressing out on my ear drum, which could have led to permanant damage to my hearing (and may have already) ... luckily, it was caught in time and he gave me antibiotics and pain killers... i was literally expecting my ear drum to burst and spray blood all over the walls at any second, but I feel a bit better now... my throat still hurts and I'm still congested, but on the Darboset (sp? powerful pain killer...) he gave me, I talk a lot and don't feel much anymore in my ear... just a constant hiss, which I guess is the fluids being pushed through the little hole...

But wow... the level of concern from Jessica was enough to bring tears to my eyes... She was truly worried about me, about my well being, about the pain I was in... I've never had someone outside my immediate family care that much about me (except maybe Clint, but he doesn't count...he might as well be immediate family...). Jessica and I are so deeply in love, theres no doubt in my mind that we will end up getting married and having children and spending the rest of our lives together... I worship this girl, and I wish I could relive every minute I've spent with this girl over and over again... and the great thing is, she feels the same way about me... This is the greatest feeling I've ever experienced in my life. And this isn't the first time I've been in love... I've loved before, but it was nowhere near this level, this perfection. I know what you're saying... "All good things come to an end... You're just caught in the moment, you'll start seeing her flaws..." Maybe you're right, maybe you're not... But all I know is that I can't see myself with anyone else, ever... I don't even SEE other girls anymore! Its all about Jessica... Shes been on my mind for over a year now, and I've been on hers, and finally, FINALLY, we're together... and I couldn't be happier

November 27 will mark our first date as a couple, and will also be the 19 month anniversary of our first blind date last April...

Peace and love all