grrlhavoc

ugh i was drunk and in a bad mood when i wrote my last post. The passage of time has helped me process the liquor but the mood remains the same. I feel like I have emotional AIDS or something. The past few years my emotions grown ill and are fading....little remains...i now just exist....

Ive been called emotionally void..apparently this is true

The past 2 days my dormant emotions have begun to stir....rage has been bubbling up. I was forced to go to the nastiest lesbian bar in Houston last night...it was ghetto and a male pimp was even there with his hoochie hoes....when we arrived everyone was standing at the front door becasue they couldnt get in. The classy bar owner was fighting with another woman in the doorway and noone could pass....my rage erupted at this inconvienence and i shoved the nasty bar owner out of the way and walked through and everyone followed. I was hoping to start a fight but the woman just kep on arguing...only next to the door rather than in front of it. i want to hit someone...i dont know why...

i have not been speaking with my family...for some reason i cannot seem to do it...My mother missses me and sounds so happy everytime i call...why do i feel nothing? what is wrong with me.

On another note I have been playing FFX....We do not have cable in the house so my roomates sit around and watch while i play....fun for the whole family!

been checking prices for flights to LA....time for me to travel.