"Fear is nothing but a sensation!
You feel hot, you feel hungry, you feel afraid! Fear can never kill you!" SInanju-Mater Chun.
In accord with my advices to myself, I went to this jam session downtown, that's famous for being a pretty good 'meat market' for getting good paying gigs.
It's about f'ing time too- I've been in this city for 3 years and have successfully avoided playing anything I don't like.
I wont get into my life story- the last 3 years have been pre-tty insane. It seemed for a while that the closer I get to realizing my dream, the greater the giants, mountains and storms that stand in my path.
I know, I know- everyone feels like that- the 'why me?!' syndrome...
But I swear to god- some stuff was just soooooo obvious...
Whatever- it doesn't matter.
The important thing is that I'm in a much better place now.
I don't think I've ever had more control over my life- I like it. And I'm not even saying that I have it together- far from it- but I know what needs fixing- and I know I can do it.
Back to last night.
I've been dreading that jam session for a while now. The cats over there are pretty sick- all have excellent chops.
Not that I don't have the chops- it's just that I'm out of my turf there- MY jam sessions are completly different- playing live electronic music, I've drifted away from mainstream instrumental jazz/funk and the repertoire that goes with it.
No- don't like jazz- sorry!
But I had to do it- so I went, got on stage and played the fuck outta that kit.
Fuck fear- it's total shite man.
So with the haircut that's 2 out of 3 advices. Not bad for a week's work, ay?
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I'm not too happy with the new way friendships are determined on the site.
In the old days- you just clicked someone's name, where it said: 'make me a friend' and then the person was in your friends list. Whther they chose to make you theirs was their decision.
That's the way it should be.
I shouldn't decide for anyone whether they like me or not...
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Go to 'collaborative fiction' group- there are 2 open stories right now- 'Sweetwater' is mine- you can add to it or start one of your own. And don't worry about a certain length or whatever- it can be 2 lines- as long as they're interesting enough for someone to want to add to them.
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I'm in a very strange mood right now.
Does it show?
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will this entry ever end?
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yes.
You feel hot, you feel hungry, you feel afraid! Fear can never kill you!" SInanju-Mater Chun.
In accord with my advices to myself, I went to this jam session downtown, that's famous for being a pretty good 'meat market' for getting good paying gigs.
It's about f'ing time too- I've been in this city for 3 years and have successfully avoided playing anything I don't like.
I wont get into my life story- the last 3 years have been pre-tty insane. It seemed for a while that the closer I get to realizing my dream, the greater the giants, mountains and storms that stand in my path.
I know, I know- everyone feels like that- the 'why me?!' syndrome...
But I swear to god- some stuff was just soooooo obvious...
Whatever- it doesn't matter.
The important thing is that I'm in a much better place now.
I don't think I've ever had more control over my life- I like it. And I'm not even saying that I have it together- far from it- but I know what needs fixing- and I know I can do it.
Back to last night.
I've been dreading that jam session for a while now. The cats over there are pretty sick- all have excellent chops.
Not that I don't have the chops- it's just that I'm out of my turf there- MY jam sessions are completly different- playing live electronic music, I've drifted away from mainstream instrumental jazz/funk and the repertoire that goes with it.
No- don't like jazz- sorry!
But I had to do it- so I went, got on stage and played the fuck outta that kit.
Fuck fear- it's total shite man.
So with the haircut that's 2 out of 3 advices. Not bad for a week's work, ay?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm not too happy with the new way friendships are determined on the site.
In the old days- you just clicked someone's name, where it said: 'make me a friend' and then the person was in your friends list. Whther they chose to make you theirs was their decision.
That's the way it should be.
I shouldn't decide for anyone whether they like me or not...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Go to 'collaborative fiction' group- there are 2 open stories right now- 'Sweetwater' is mine- you can add to it or start one of your own. And don't worry about a certain length or whatever- it can be 2 lines- as long as they're interesting enough for someone to want to add to them.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm in a very strange mood right now.
Does it show?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
will this entry ever end?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yes.
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If I have to change my handle, I think I'll skip the whole "User formerly known" thing and go right to the unpronouncable symbol.
But, that'll be a while yet...
[Edited on Feb 24, 2004 2:38PM]