grinningator

Another update tonite.. I hope this doesn't get to depressing because I am in a wierd mood right now! I feel alienated from my family and the world right now..my sister has taken my family away but not my life! I always felt like the blacksheep of the family but now it has become evident that I am! I do not expect any recourse otherwise! I have my own ways of doing things that other people do not understand, so in not understanding these things, they choose to alienate me! I am not a bad person, and because of the guilt laid on me from other people, I refuse to accept that I am a bad person on theyre grounds! Just an insight for everyone, my family is a very fundamentalist christian family, and just because i refuse to bend to they're beleifs, they have decided to alienate me and leave me out of all the decisions of the end times of my parents,(who i love dearly) lives! This angers me to no end! Most of you know me as jovial, pleasant, and in a happy mood all the time, but tonite I am in one of those moods where it feels good to release some aniety, and free some suppressed thoughts that were in my mind! Thanks for listening to my bitch session! Damn! And to think psychologists get paid big bucks for this shit! ROFL

FEELING ALIENATED
Feeling alone, sitting at home,
feeling cold, sometimes feeling old.
Staring into space, tears running down my face,
starting to fret, and feeling regret.

Why should I feel this way,
thinking of yesterday,
its all in the past, why should it last,
Why do I let it stay?

The sad part is, that i let it sink in,
and get under my skin,
when i should let it run off my back, like water off of a duck,
AND JUST SAY WTF!!!!

Yes I think that is what i will do!
Thanks for letting me confide in you.
~~~~,~~,`< THE GATOR