grimreaper86

Thanksgiving is soon. Such an odd holiday. I don't much care for turkey. I like ham myself. It's not particularly exciting but it gives me some time off school. So I can't bitch too much. Anyway, Here's what my tat looks like.



I've been wanting to get this particular tattoo for a long time. Not only do I like the way it looks but in a lot of ways it holds a great deal of symbolism for myself. It's my handle in general on the internet or in video games. I always go by grim reaper, but it's more than that too. I am generally a walking contradiction. I am both positive and negative. I'm fascinated by death and other things completely morbid and would think little of killing people whose lives I have little value for, in part. On the other, hand I can also be very passionate, and I get along with a great deal of people very easily. I also have a lot of love to give, but in general even though I'm an optimist by nature around others who lose their hope on something. I am by myself a pessimist and find that I prepare for the worst or try to shoulder responsibilities I'm not really inclined to handle for the sake of others. I try to help those around me that I am close to even while balancing my own life, and if anyone ever tried to hurt those people they'd find themselves cut down very quickly. A lot of people think of death as something evil. I don't. I think if the Grim Reaper is or was real then he probably is just doing a job. Perhaps he even enjoys it to some degree, but I imagine he could also very lonely and he shoulders a great burden. I sympathize.

Also, in dealing with my own fear of death I sort of imagined a personification of death. When I was younger I would talk to the Grim Reaper in my head and yes he would respond. However I had a very strong imagination and I still do. I have always thought perhaps I'm insane. I don't necessarily believe that now though. The way I figure it either people are really responding to me or the more likely thing is that my own imagination is conjuring up words in which to respond to myself. I believe this to be the case as the outcome of my conversations with beings that aren't actually believed to be real is always favorable to myself. So I have assumed any conversation with the Grim Reaper I've had is my imagination and I was simply doing it to deal with my own fear of death. While I no longer fear my own death, I still enjoyed my conversations with him even if they were myself, if that makes any sense. If nothing else my tattoo also is means that death is something we share and can not escape. It is the inevitability we all must face at some point. It is nothing to fret over and I have long since stopped being afraid of it. In a way. Death has my back. That more then anything is why I got this tattoo.