INNEFECTUAL
Mood: Sadness
Listening to: Silence
Reading: Whatever the MacBookPro shows me
Eating: ...
Drinking: Black Cherry Cruzan Rum
So why can I design multi-million dollar solutions but cannot convince my wife I love her.
I buy her presents, shower her with physical affection. I bought her the house of her dreams. I give her everything that she wants.
Still, she "feels more alone with me than when I am gone"... Sh'e going to therapy by herself right now to see if "there's something wrong in me".
I can't handle losing my boys! They are everything to me.
My greatest fear is not death, it is the loss of my children.
I feel frozen, professionaly, emotionally, and creatively...
I have no outlet, I can't get any of these feelings out...
When the FUCK am I going to Explode!
Mood: Sadness
Listening to: Silence
Reading: Whatever the MacBookPro shows me
Eating: ...
Drinking: Black Cherry Cruzan Rum
So why can I design multi-million dollar solutions but cannot convince my wife I love her.
I buy her presents, shower her with physical affection. I bought her the house of her dreams. I give her everything that she wants.
Still, she "feels more alone with me than when I am gone"... Sh'e going to therapy by herself right now to see if "there's something wrong in me".
I can't handle losing my boys! They are everything to me.
My greatest fear is not death, it is the loss of my children.
I feel frozen, professionaly, emotionally, and creatively...
I have no outlet, I can't get any of these feelings out...
When the FUCK am I going to Explode!
alie_lynn:
Big hugs! I'm so sorry you are going thru such a rough time! I feel so bad! Muah! 
stockholm:
no news yet! but there was a post from his CC on the coast guard blog saying that they'll most likely call on saturday. I can't wait!