So, I've been seeing a girl for about 3 weeks - met online, got on well and met up and had a great time, we went away for my birthday and had things in common. I spoke honestly and openly to her about my depression and anxiety, which, although I've had it for over twenty years I've only recently been diagnosed - it's shaped the person I am and makes things tricky sometimes, socially, sometimes I just can't be around other people and need to be on my own. She seemed to really understand. The last few days I've descended into what they call a 'low mood', I try not to let it take hold but it's not easy to shake, we met up on Saturday, went out for dinner and came back to mine - it was a bit of a disaster to be honest (the bed broke and Steve McQueen was a bit of a dick), she was going to stay but decided it would be better if she went home...I thought we were okay. This morning I texted her to ask if we could go out another night instead of tomorrow as I'm just struggling a bit.
She texted me back to tell me that I'd made my feelings clear and that I should have called to dump her and that I'm not a nice person.
I wasn't trying to dump her at all but, honestly, I'm too tired to fight it. I'm a lot of things - moody, grumpy, sometimes I'm too selfish and I drink too much but this time...I'm not sure it was entirely my fault. Discuss.
