grimjack

Nice Cave & The Bad Seeds have been the best thing for me to listen over the past few weeks. His brooding lyrics and vocals mixed with the darkly layered music of Blixa and the Seeds have matched my dour mood without bringing me down any deeper. Its the right music for the right time, I guess. Mostly Nocturama, No More Shall We Part, and Let Love In have crossed my stereo speakers. It almost plays as a soundtrack to my emotional and physical state of being at the moment...simply put, if there was a film about me at this point in my life, Nick Cave would be the underscoring music.

Beyond that, I've been trying to be the 'Happy Boy' to friends, family, and workmates. I think that's taking a toll on my mental well being, though. I dont go around opening myself to everyone like a cheap paperback book. Instead, I try to get my mind off of the the bad things that have happenend in my life this new year with work, activities, and the like. The last few days though, I've been close to a fucking meltdown. Im hoping to make it through the next month when vacation hits again...