grfstrider

It funny what you can find by accident. Last night my little devil (my cat blackie) cause on of my book selfes to collapse. Hidden on the self was a photo of two old friends of mine. I found the photo this morning getting ready for work. It was a photo of Megan and Doug. As I was looling at the photo memories both dear and painfull kept flashing through my mind. After all these years the hole in my heart is still there. Megan was my first love. Doug was like a brother. And no they didn't run off together. Megan And I got into a fight and Doug got sick of both of us. I miss him but Megan was special. After all these years (6 to 7) I regret what happened between us. I still try to talk to her but she just keeps blocking me or not responding. so I have been in a depressed mood all day. I find myself even wanting not to play FF13. God I would give anyhting to talk to her right now.(sorry just had to put that down. will be alright haven't been in one of these moods in a while) Well I am going to try FF13 it might take my mind off things for a while.(yes it isn't healthy but I do not have other options avalable to me right know). Type to you all later.