depressed
I am in a really bad depression. I am not blaming george but he started me down this road with the last conversation we had online. (no this isn't about megan) I miss having doug and the others around to hang out with, go places with, and play games topgether (video games, Dn...). Then I had one hell of a bad week end at work only to find out today that Randy and Bob will no longer be there after Sunday. Randy is leaving for a new job and Bob is being force to resign. So starting next week I will have a new managment team in my store. That scares me to death. Bob is the one who gave me a chance after all that happened at Wendy's. I owe him alot. I find it hard now adays to enter into new situtations. I really find it hard interacting with old female friends. I am so afraid to piss them off and when I do I am afraid of a repeat of what happend 4 years ago. There are girls I have meet that I would love to ask out but don't have the courage or the nerve to ask. I find myself isolating myself from people and yet at the same time I get mad and upset that I have noone around me to hang with. Ther are time I have seriously wondered if I am still sane. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just wish I had a way to get out of the house ethier tomorrow or thurseday. Just away for the entire day, no worries, no cares and just have fun all day. Maybe meet some new friends. Un-fortunatly there is no way for that to happen. I will probably spend the day in my room playing video games or reading like I have been for the past year or more. Well thats all for now. Type to you all later.
I am in a really bad depression. I am not blaming george but he started me down this road with the last conversation we had online. (no this isn't about megan) I miss having doug and the others around to hang out with, go places with, and play games topgether (video games, Dn...). Then I had one hell of a bad week end at work only to find out today that Randy and Bob will no longer be there after Sunday. Randy is leaving for a new job and Bob is being force to resign. So starting next week I will have a new managment team in my store. That scares me to death. Bob is the one who gave me a chance after all that happened at Wendy's. I owe him alot. I find it hard now adays to enter into new situtations. I really find it hard interacting with old female friends. I am so afraid to piss them off and when I do I am afraid of a repeat of what happend 4 years ago. There are girls I have meet that I would love to ask out but don't have the courage or the nerve to ask. I find myself isolating myself from people and yet at the same time I get mad and upset that I have noone around me to hang with. Ther are time I have seriously wondered if I am still sane. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just wish I had a way to get out of the house ethier tomorrow or thurseday. Just away for the entire day, no worries, no cares and just have fun all day. Maybe meet some new friends. Un-fortunatly there is no way for that to happen. I will probably spend the day in my room playing video games or reading like I have been for the past year or more. Well thats all for now. Type to you all later.