Complaining and bored
Its been a while since I just sat and typed what is going on and how I am doing. So here I go. I am still working at Boston Market like a dog. Right now I am opening the store. Still haven't gone up to TCC to re-enroll but hoping to do so soon. I have been really bored latly with nothing but video games to play and books to read. I really miss hang out with friends. Things a tense at home. Pop has been in a really pissy mod. So things haven't been to pleasent at home.
I have been read my friends bullitons and there blogs. Everyone seems to be doing good and movie on in there lives. I just feel like I am stuck in the same old rut. I enjoy where I work its just.....I don't know I just feel so blah and alone. I miss all my friends. I try to keep in touch, but I feel that I just screw up everything and they don't want to have anything to do with me. I just haven't been right since what happened at Wendy's and with what happened between me and Megan. I just don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I just get so fustrated and angry. The more I miss megan the more I feel that my life is goign to pot. I just wish that we could make up and be friends again. Maybe then my life wouldn't feel like crap.
I wrote to a person that I read there blogs on a regular basis. I hope she doesn't hate me to much. I just told her what I felt was the truth and how I thought she should coop. I will also say that I am tired of Megans friend thinking I am trying to use them to get to her. The ones I try to contact are the ones that I have met or that I find something interesting about them. I am not using them to get to Megan. I could care less that they are friends with her. I am contacting them because I want to wish them well, find out how they have been, or talk to them about something they wrote or did on-line. There was only once that I tried to get infomation about megan from one. That was because I heard that she was seriously hurt and I couldn't get anymore info about what happened and how she was doing. That was one of the biggest mistakes I ever made. I feel that it has haunted me since then.
I work tomorrow and have friday off. I actully get a pay day off for once. I will spend more money on books,movies, and video games to try to releave the boredom. I just really wish I had some friends to talk to and hang out with. well thats all for know. I will type to you all later.
Its been a while since I just sat and typed what is going on and how I am doing. So here I go. I am still working at Boston Market like a dog. Right now I am opening the store. Still haven't gone up to TCC to re-enroll but hoping to do so soon. I have been really bored latly with nothing but video games to play and books to read. I really miss hang out with friends. Things a tense at home. Pop has been in a really pissy mod. So things haven't been to pleasent at home.
I have been read my friends bullitons and there blogs. Everyone seems to be doing good and movie on in there lives. I just feel like I am stuck in the same old rut. I enjoy where I work its just.....I don't know I just feel so blah and alone. I miss all my friends. I try to keep in touch, but I feel that I just screw up everything and they don't want to have anything to do with me. I just haven't been right since what happened at Wendy's and with what happened between me and Megan. I just don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I just get so fustrated and angry. The more I miss megan the more I feel that my life is goign to pot. I just wish that we could make up and be friends again. Maybe then my life wouldn't feel like crap.
I wrote to a person that I read there blogs on a regular basis. I hope she doesn't hate me to much. I just told her what I felt was the truth and how I thought she should coop. I will also say that I am tired of Megans friend thinking I am trying to use them to get to her. The ones I try to contact are the ones that I have met or that I find something interesting about them. I am not using them to get to Megan. I could care less that they are friends with her. I am contacting them because I want to wish them well, find out how they have been, or talk to them about something they wrote or did on-line. There was only once that I tried to get infomation about megan from one. That was because I heard that she was seriously hurt and I couldn't get anymore info about what happened and how she was doing. That was one of the biggest mistakes I ever made. I feel that it has haunted me since then.
I work tomorrow and have friday off. I actully get a pay day off for once. I will spend more money on books,movies, and video games to try to releave the boredom. I just really wish I had some friends to talk to and hang out with. well thats all for know. I will type to you all later.
viking:
Dude, that sucks. I'm feeling kinda stuck too lately. I haven't seen any friends in a while. I need to get a better job so I have money, and my parents aren't always easy to get on with. My bf's in America and its difficult missing him all the time. I spend all my tme talking to him, not sleeping and messing about on the net. Ugh. Don't even wanna continue with this stupid degree anymore. I don't know 'what happened at 'Wendy's' but I hope you resolve it with Megan, her freinds start being nicer, or you just meet someone new! 
grfstrider:
Thank you, Its great to know there are people out there in the same boat as me.