Been in a weird mood
I have been In a weird mood latly. I think it is because I am lonly. However I said some things that where inapropriate to a friend and I am sorry. Like usual I didn't think and said something not once but twice before I thought about it. I typed the first thought that came into my head. I usual do better and I don't try to press my feeling on to others. Lets face it I am ugly and noone wants to be with me. I have known this for years. Oh hell I am not type ing this right either.But maybe it will show the state of mind I am in right know. I am horrible with interactions between myself and the opisit sex.God it still isn't coming out right. I feel like such an ass. Lets face it I was trying to tell someone I thought they Looked beautufull in a cool way and it turned into an inaprobrate comment. I didn't really mean anything wrong I just opened my mouth and inserted my foot.
One of my main problems is I see so many people with boyfriends/grilfriends, or hear people talk about there relationships that I am feeling left out and alone. I would love more then anything to find someone I could hold in my arms right now and cuddle with. (Beleive it or not the person I made the comments to isn't a person I would want to cuddle with. She is and I find her beautifull but she is someone I like more as someone to be crazy with and to joke with then to have anything romantic with her.) Add to the fact that some asswhipes stole my debit card info and put my account in the negative 200s. Not to mention trouble at work and I am making comments with out thinking. I did the same thing to katt at the end. Right now I am wondering why I keep making the same mistakes over and over. I hope she understands that I feel real bad about upsetting her not once but twice. I just don't know what to do right now. Expesally since I am in a very depressive mode and not really thinking right. I will be refraining from commenting for some time till I can get my head together. Well I will type to you all later. Real later.
I have been In a weird mood latly. I think it is because I am lonly. However I said some things that where inapropriate to a friend and I am sorry. Like usual I didn't think and said something not once but twice before I thought about it. I typed the first thought that came into my head. I usual do better and I don't try to press my feeling on to others. Lets face it I am ugly and noone wants to be with me. I have known this for years. Oh hell I am not type ing this right either.But maybe it will show the state of mind I am in right know. I am horrible with interactions between myself and the opisit sex.God it still isn't coming out right. I feel like such an ass. Lets face it I was trying to tell someone I thought they Looked beautufull in a cool way and it turned into an inaprobrate comment. I didn't really mean anything wrong I just opened my mouth and inserted my foot.
One of my main problems is I see so many people with boyfriends/grilfriends, or hear people talk about there relationships that I am feeling left out and alone. I would love more then anything to find someone I could hold in my arms right now and cuddle with. (Beleive it or not the person I made the comments to isn't a person I would want to cuddle with. She is and I find her beautifull but she is someone I like more as someone to be crazy with and to joke with then to have anything romantic with her.) Add to the fact that some asswhipes stole my debit card info and put my account in the negative 200s. Not to mention trouble at work and I am making comments with out thinking. I did the same thing to katt at the end. Right now I am wondering why I keep making the same mistakes over and over. I hope she understands that I feel real bad about upsetting her not once but twice. I just don't know what to do right now. Expesally since I am in a very depressive mode and not really thinking right. I will be refraining from commenting for some time till I can get my head together. Well I will type to you all later. Real later.