grfstrider

I should be excited and yet
We just got an adorable black kitten today. We have named him blackie. Even though I have spent little time with him I find myself with mixed feelings. I am excited to have a new cat and even more that its just an 8 week old kitten. Yet at the same time I am really missing tommy. Seeing the little one brings back all types of memories of tommy. I even found myself resentfull that a new cat has replaced tommy in this house. Its funny I couldn't wait to have a new cat and YET........ Its hard to put into words how I feel. Its just that I loved tommy so much. He was my cat, my companion, all the hours we spent together and now to have a new cat here in his place. I guess I am a little angry that we have a new cat in the house. but at the same time I am happy and excited. My god I must really be crazy. I have never really felt this way. As I write this I find myself wanting to cry. I have tomorrow off maybe I just need some time to get use to the new situtation. Well thats all for now. Type to you all later.