grfstrider

I should be happy Yet..........
I should be happy and excited and yet I am depressed and tired. In the upcoming months I am going back to collage and in the begining of March I am going to Disney World. My life is finally moving forward again. Yet I can not get Katt off my mind. It has been four years since this mess all began. I just can't let her go.

I admit that I screwed up our relationship and I don't blame her for not wanting anything to do with me. Yet I love her with all my heart. Not knowing how she is doing or what has become of her is tearing me apart. I have tried so hard to let her go. However something comes alone to remind me of her and I find myself trying once again to find her and to get her to talk to me. She has called me a stalker and and insane. I find myself wondering if she isn't right. Am I insane? Am I a stalker? All I know is that I love her and deep down I don't want to let her go. At this point I will simply state that I need to let her go and I am/have tried to let her go.

As my life moves forward I realize so has hers. With that realization it hurts all over again. The pain and heart ache of losing her comes back full force. I end this blog with a question to my readers. Am I insane? Or are there others out there like me?