Just found out a guy I know died. I am not sure of the circumstances. We weren't even friends, really. I had not seen him for either 6 or 7 years, but I can still feel the affect. I am friends with his brother, and really only a second or third string friend, but not sure if I can imagine his pain. . But Nick, who died was around a lot, like 10 years ago in the same social group as me. He was a good kid, funny and impetuous as hell.
Unfortunately he also had a drinking problem, and I would guess other demons the drinking problem was meant to drown out. He had lost his wife, his job, been to prison for multiple DUI, I think one where he injured someone. After prison he was occasionally homeless, had been stabbed by other drifters, but survived. He had really fallen out of my orbit, as I only heard rumors of him when I would occasionally see his brother. I can't say no one saw it coming, and I don't even know if his death was even related to his problems, or not, but I would guess it did, whether by his own hand or not. It's strange to me that alcohol can just be a part of our lives and culture for most of us, and such a source of true misery for others.
As a friend of mine put it, he was a good kid, and something broke in him none of us could fix. Now he is dead at 30. Whatever lies for us beyond, whether a true after life paradise or just a restful oblivion, I hope he has the peace he couldn't find in life
Unfortunately he also had a drinking problem, and I would guess other demons the drinking problem was meant to drown out. He had lost his wife, his job, been to prison for multiple DUI, I think one where he injured someone. After prison he was occasionally homeless, had been stabbed by other drifters, but survived. He had really fallen out of my orbit, as I only heard rumors of him when I would occasionally see his brother. I can't say no one saw it coming, and I don't even know if his death was even related to his problems, or not, but I would guess it did, whether by his own hand or not. It's strange to me that alcohol can just be a part of our lives and culture for most of us, and such a source of true misery for others.
As a friend of mine put it, he was a good kid, and something broke in him none of us could fix. Now he is dead at 30. Whatever lies for us beyond, whether a true after life paradise or just a restful oblivion, I hope he has the peace he couldn't find in life
I was joking about the whole reading my blogs thing. I assume you all have lives outside of SG. If nothing else I'm glad if my boobs cheered you up if only a little bit.
Take care.
as for my own personal demon, i agree wholeheartedly. i only wish i could be present to enjoy said punishment.