grey

it would probably be falling apart if i had put it together to begin with. good thing i didn't because i can claim normalcy now. it's as together as it ever was. and i have the same cd in. and in the summer i didn't know how to document last winter--i'd forgotten pretty much everything--but on the cold ride home with cop lights tonight i had flashes of de-icing and running towards the liquor store in the snow.

and i've got boys reminding me of the favors they did but what i really want is for him to own up to his. i want to sort this out, favor for favor, and then decide that it doesn't matter and go back to new years day. i wonder if he remembers when he liked me?

probably not. *shrug.* it would have fallen apart had we given it the chance.