grendelkahn

Rejection sucks, but for some of us rejection is all we ever get. I watch these happy couples walk in my neighborhood, and I can't help but be envious of them. They're sharing a moment that no one else can be privy to. They're holding hands and laughing about something that can not be overheard or interject in. At that second in time nothing matters as much as they do to one another. I see these things and I think it's been too long since I have had one of those moments. I think that everyone wants those slivers in time but when you have it it's easy, when you're forced to go without it seems like it will never end. I just wish that mine would end. I'm tired of being alone, of being the only one of my friends without someone in his life. To bring it full circle though some of us are doomed to lead empty existences otherwise there wouldn't be stories of loneliness like there are. Sometimes it doesn't matter how hard some of us try we can never succeed. Maybe we we're meant to fail. I'd like to think not but sometimes things go wrong for so long you can't help think that there's something keeping you from achieving that which you desire, and that doesn't just apply to love, it can be anything. It just so happens that my thing is love, a relationship, but not sex. Sex I've got covered, but sex without love really isn't much on the grander scheme of things. I wish I had more answers than I do, but it seems that I don't. That's all I've got now (or more to the point, what I don't have). Maybe more later.