grendel

The bitch is back! I love her so. I rode with her for a while tonight, remembering her eccentricities. She's a bit deaf in her left ear. She doesn't pick up on the signals so much anymore ever since she got hit in the head with a bird. She refuses to listen to the music I want to listen to. But she's back, and I...
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Today I am feeling fat and sassy.

I am not a unique and precious snowflake.

This journal is not my property. I can't write what I really feel in here right now. I'm going to put pen to paper and let my emotions out there. There's something specifically satisfying about black ink flowing from a silver pen onto a white page.

Later:

Ha ha! This...
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Funky horn riffs turn me on.

There's me sitting back all decked out watching the world go by, latin rhythms, bongo drums and deep deep bass pounding in my head. There's you, hair up, smile on your face. You're in a clingy, filmy black dress, low cut and bunched up perfectly.

You dance your way over to me and I watch all of your curves...
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I just heard a report on NPR about the state of the Jewish community in Israel. Apparently there have been huge numbers of Russian immigrants coming to one particular coastal Israeli city. They are either secular jews or Russian Christians. This isn't boding well with the orthodox Jewish community, especially since these Christian Russians are opening shops that sell pork sausages from the homeland among...
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In my next life, I want to come back as a cone snail. Snails that can kill and eat fish = badass snails in my book. Plus there is no known anitdote for their venom.

And this. . . This here is why I should have paid more attention in chemistry.

The composition of the venom differs greatly between species and between individual snails within...
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The sum total of what I did today would seem rather sad to your average viewer, but I had a supremely relaxing day and loved every minute of it. There was only one thing that could have happened to make it better, but even without, the day was still pretty damn good.

As for the truck. I'm laughing about it now because there's nothing else...
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I feel like I just got hit in the stomach with the business end of a cricket bat. I got the bill for my truck.

I need to go lay down or put my head between my knees or something.

ack!

Today I am at both ends of the rope, pulling.

Do all relationships have some basis in the power struggle? Is one party always at some sort of disadvantage to the other?

I made a fool of myself over a girl today. d'oh! But hot damn she's a nifty chick.

Transient lifestyles suck my left nut. So there.

I want a girl who can uncover...
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I'm plowing my way through my list of "must reads." I just finished The Illuminatus! Trilogy, and picked up Gravity's Rainbow today. I'm thinking Joyce's, Ulysses and then Finnigan's Wake may be next. My brain hurts.

I'm getting to where I really look forward to Tuesdays.

And I'm also beginning to see more and more truth in the axiom "Absolute power corrupts absolutely."

Five things...
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People exist on a spectrum from the most redundant to the most flexible. The latter, unless they are thouroughly trained in psychodynamics, are always at a disadvantage to the former in social interactions. The redundant do not change their script; the flexible continually keep changing, trying to find a way of relating constructively. Eventually, the flexible ones find the "proper" gambit, and communication, of a...
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Yup, so I'm moving to Maryland. I'm not to sure about the area, but hell I never am when I first move. It's only a few years. The program seems solid, I like the folks I'll be working with, and I'll get to attend the University of Maryland. Plus, where else do you get to deal with black widows, poison ivy and honey bees at...
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Well, I'm here. I'm in Maryland. The whole experience thus far has been. . . mixed. Not the trip of my dreams, but not terrible. I get to go keep bees tomorrow so that should be good. Maybe I just need to get stung.

The east coast. I'm sorry to say, is not my cup of tea. That may be the biggest decidng factor for...
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