Yesterday I did a shoot with the charming and lovely Lavonne
It went so well! I feel that it has a lot to do with how much of a genius she is with photography and how comfortable she makes everything<3 With my most favourite boots and my favourite feline popping into a couple pictures, we had some great shots by the end of it! I'm almost never confident in my pictures but ah! These were different, so I hope everyone enjoys them when they go up!
I think this is something to be happy about and it no doubt has taken my mind of some confusing things.
I'm trying to find my mother, after all this time and all the hurt I want to know more about her, I think my sister and I were robbed of that when we were small.
I have had the chance to read my file, a summary of what my life was like when I was with her, I read it and felt loss and sorrow, but through it I have been able to understand why I have so many disturbing memories and the overwhelming feelings and frightening images that have been with me since birth.
I am now finding it easier to understand myself, I feel like it's not my fault anymore, I understand that I was too small to protect my sister from what we were both exposed to.
My Adoptive family though has also given me comfort, My foster mother also shares mine and my sisters Cree ancestry (My eyes are truly brown! I wear contacts!) She used to tell me countless time when I was sad and despondent that I come from a line of very strong and powerful women, I never thought so much of it because Im only half Cree and Im half German, but I think of it now and I feel like I am strong enough to cope.
I love my sister very much and even though we lost our biological mother and father we gained a foster mother and father and two more sisters and one brother <3 My foster mother tells us both that we may not have come from her blood but we are in her heart like her own. (we've been a family since I was six.)
Im trying to get through everything and its overwhelming and a struggle to say in the least but things will turn out.
I think it could be sunshine.
It went so well! I feel that it has a lot to do with how much of a genius she is with photography and how comfortable she makes everything<3 With my most favourite boots and my favourite feline popping into a couple pictures, we had some great shots by the end of it! I'm almost never confident in my pictures but ah! These were different, so I hope everyone enjoys them when they go up!
I think this is something to be happy about and it no doubt has taken my mind of some confusing things.
I'm trying to find my mother, after all this time and all the hurt I want to know more about her, I think my sister and I were robbed of that when we were small.
I have had the chance to read my file, a summary of what my life was like when I was with her, I read it and felt loss and sorrow, but through it I have been able to understand why I have so many disturbing memories and the overwhelming feelings and frightening images that have been with me since birth.
I am now finding it easier to understand myself, I feel like it's not my fault anymore, I understand that I was too small to protect my sister from what we were both exposed to.
My Adoptive family though has also given me comfort, My foster mother also shares mine and my sisters Cree ancestry (My eyes are truly brown! I wear contacts!) She used to tell me countless time when I was sad and despondent that I come from a line of very strong and powerful women, I never thought so much of it because Im only half Cree and Im half German, but I think of it now and I feel like I am strong enough to cope.
I love my sister very much and even though we lost our biological mother and father we gained a foster mother and father and two more sisters and one brother <3 My foster mother tells us both that we may not have come from her blood but we are in her heart like her own. (we've been a family since I was six.)
Im trying to get through everything and its overwhelming and a struggle to say in the least but things will turn out.
I think it could be sunshine.
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Looking forward to the new set!! Lavonne is amazing