In the arms of eternity
Blood guts knives knives knives.
Maybe your just sitting around reading guns and ammo, masturbating in your own feces, do you just stop and go wow... it is amazing how fucking crazy I really am.
Today I stayed awake long enough to see the sun rise.
I think its time I began taking care of myself, I mean I love taking care of other people, I love how it feels to make other people feel happy, I love how it feels when I see people smile because of something I did for them, I always want to share all of my things, I give away all my favorite things all the time, and as a result I don't own very much
I don't want to buy new clothes even though I kind of need them, I want my sister to have new clothes, I want my sister to have brand new shoes, I want my sister to have a nice goalie stick to play at her games with, I want her to have the new helmet for hockey.
I notice all my black clothes are turning grey, my boots are getting ruined, and my only pair of shoes have huge rips along the sides... but I see my sister happy with all her nice clothes and shoes and I feel like its much better this way, I take care of everything for her, and I hope she is happy.
Sometimes... I wonder if it's really healthy for me that I disregard myself so much, I wonder if I thought about myself more...would I be happier?
Would it be selfish for me to go shopping? would it be selfish for me to have pretty things for myself?
I don't know...
I don't really like gifts to be honest, I would rather be the one giving the gift than getting it, Im not high on myself or anything, I just truly believe that if you send out good deeds these deeds will come back to you someday eventually.
It could be sunshine.
I do however, feel that its important for myself to be happy, I think even if I don't go get new pretty things and treat myself everyday, I should at least feel good too, How can I make anyone else happy if im not happy myself?
I am on my way to inner peace, Im trying....
My friend gave me amethyst the other day, just a small stone, and she told me she noticed how drawn I am to the color purple, and I am pretty drawn to it, I love purple things, she said to me "purple is the color of amethyst and amethyst represents healing and good nature" , I think she is right and maybe I was drawn to purple this whole time because of my personality.
I wonder if nature is something that will help me connect with myself more.
I wonder if something spiritual is what I need rather than something psychological.
Blood guts knives knives knives.
Maybe your just sitting around reading guns and ammo, masturbating in your own feces, do you just stop and go wow... it is amazing how fucking crazy I really am.
Today I stayed awake long enough to see the sun rise.
I think its time I began taking care of myself, I mean I love taking care of other people, I love how it feels to make other people feel happy, I love how it feels when I see people smile because of something I did for them, I always want to share all of my things, I give away all my favorite things all the time, and as a result I don't own very much
I don't want to buy new clothes even though I kind of need them, I want my sister to have new clothes, I want my sister to have brand new shoes, I want my sister to have a nice goalie stick to play at her games with, I want her to have the new helmet for hockey.
I notice all my black clothes are turning grey, my boots are getting ruined, and my only pair of shoes have huge rips along the sides... but I see my sister happy with all her nice clothes and shoes and I feel like its much better this way, I take care of everything for her, and I hope she is happy.
Sometimes... I wonder if it's really healthy for me that I disregard myself so much, I wonder if I thought about myself more...would I be happier?
Would it be selfish for me to go shopping? would it be selfish for me to have pretty things for myself?
I don't know...
I don't really like gifts to be honest, I would rather be the one giving the gift than getting it, Im not high on myself or anything, I just truly believe that if you send out good deeds these deeds will come back to you someday eventually.
It could be sunshine.
I do however, feel that its important for myself to be happy, I think even if I don't go get new pretty things and treat myself everyday, I should at least feel good too, How can I make anyone else happy if im not happy myself?
I am on my way to inner peace, Im trying....
My friend gave me amethyst the other day, just a small stone, and she told me she noticed how drawn I am to the color purple, and I am pretty drawn to it, I love purple things, she said to me "purple is the color of amethyst and amethyst represents healing and good nature" , I think she is right and maybe I was drawn to purple this whole time because of my personality.
I wonder if nature is something that will help me connect with myself more.
I wonder if something spiritual is what I need rather than something psychological.
drrn:
When your black clothes turn grey it just means you've finally broken them in.
holidayorphanx:
the same thing rings true with me...