Its all sunshine now<3
Its been almost twenty years of living! I am on the verge of turning twenty and it's killing me! I cant believe I made it this far!
When I was eighteen I decided to work at The Bay at one of the make up counters, I really like working with people and make up and skin care so I decided it might be a good idea... I soon found that it was the lamest job I ever worked... this nasty red uniform they gave me made me hate working at the bay.... But I remember just like yesterday coming in out of the snow to my interview, I laid eyes on the most BEAUTIFUL red head I had ever seen! He was a tall fellow with that kind of hair that told me he must play music or like music a lot, I was nervously fixing my hair in a mirror from the snow, and I saw him look at me when he walked by! That made me so much more nervous because I was hoping he would think i was pretty.... and eventually I found out that he did!
I must have seemed so silly to him at the time! Everyday I worked at The Bay I was hoping that tall gorgeous fellow who worked at the back would be working that day too, and so before I would come to work I would fix my hair and makeup and wonder if he would like the way I did it, and I would wonder what I would say to him if he talked to me.... that didn't go well for the first little bit... I could hardly look him in the eye and I would mumble little words and be too shy to say anything else, no matter how much i planned in my head what I would say, time went by and I whispered to anyone who would listen how cool I thought Jarrett was and how much I liked him, even if he didn't like me back I was still happy that I could be around him <3
more time went by and he went to Europe for a while... I was sad I didn't get to see him for a while, but I was excited because I found that the band he played guitar in GO FOR THE EYES were going to have a show when he got back!
I went to this show! The very first show they ever played! I got wasted and like the foolish little drunk girl I was I tried to kiss Jarrett! but I was so drunk I missed
well I was pretty drunk and ended up staying at the bands house, and that sweet fellow found me a bed to sleep in for the night in the basement of the house, I spilled everything I told him I really liked him and thought he was so amazing and I remember the feeling of him hugging me and saying he really liked me too... I knew he had a girlfriend and that it wasn't really working out for them anymore, but Jarrett being the honest and wonderful boy he is told me that he had to end that before anything between him and I happened, and actually I was so relieved when he said that, I knew he wanted to stay downstairs with me, but he is just so good natured that as much as he didn't want to be with that girl anymore ( they weren't doing well even before I came along ) he still felt that it was the right thing to do to break up with her before anything more progressed for us, WELL its been over a year for us and we are still together, he loves me and gives me all the hugs and kisses I need, I know sometimes I am emotional and I get sad about myself and sometimes when we sleep I have nightmares and at one point anxiety attacks in the middle of the night, but there he is holding me close and keeping me safe, there is Jarrett loving me and kissing tears and fears away, he isn't really a boyfriend to me anymore, he is something much more meaningful and special to me, a word that is dear and kept close to my heart, and I know now... after what i went through today that he truly loves me, and he is one person I never have to be afraid of deserting me, i found love in someone that day I saw him walk by and even today I still want to look pretty when I see him, even though I know he will love me no matter what, I still want to go out of my way to bring him little gifts and dinner and write him secret notes that I stick on his walls or bedside table, yes I want to give him all the love i can give because I know that I can give and give and give and always I will receive and I will never be empty,
I love you, thats all I can say. <3
Its been almost twenty years of living! I am on the verge of turning twenty and it's killing me! I cant believe I made it this far!
When I was eighteen I decided to work at The Bay at one of the make up counters, I really like working with people and make up and skin care so I decided it might be a good idea... I soon found that it was the lamest job I ever worked... this nasty red uniform they gave me made me hate working at the bay.... But I remember just like yesterday coming in out of the snow to my interview, I laid eyes on the most BEAUTIFUL red head I had ever seen! He was a tall fellow with that kind of hair that told me he must play music or like music a lot, I was nervously fixing my hair in a mirror from the snow, and I saw him look at me when he walked by! That made me so much more nervous because I was hoping he would think i was pretty.... and eventually I found out that he did!
I must have seemed so silly to him at the time! Everyday I worked at The Bay I was hoping that tall gorgeous fellow who worked at the back would be working that day too, and so before I would come to work I would fix my hair and makeup and wonder if he would like the way I did it, and I would wonder what I would say to him if he talked to me.... that didn't go well for the first little bit... I could hardly look him in the eye and I would mumble little words and be too shy to say anything else, no matter how much i planned in my head what I would say, time went by and I whispered to anyone who would listen how cool I thought Jarrett was and how much I liked him, even if he didn't like me back I was still happy that I could be around him <3
more time went by and he went to Europe for a while... I was sad I didn't get to see him for a while, but I was excited because I found that the band he played guitar in GO FOR THE EYES were going to have a show when he got back!
I went to this show! The very first show they ever played! I got wasted and like the foolish little drunk girl I was I tried to kiss Jarrett! but I was so drunk I missed
well I was pretty drunk and ended up staying at the bands house, and that sweet fellow found me a bed to sleep in for the night in the basement of the house, I spilled everything I told him I really liked him and thought he was so amazing and I remember the feeling of him hugging me and saying he really liked me too... I knew he had a girlfriend and that it wasn't really working out for them anymore, but Jarrett being the honest and wonderful boy he is told me that he had to end that before anything between him and I happened, and actually I was so relieved when he said that, I knew he wanted to stay downstairs with me, but he is just so good natured that as much as he didn't want to be with that girl anymore ( they weren't doing well even before I came along ) he still felt that it was the right thing to do to break up with her before anything more progressed for us, WELL its been over a year for us and we are still together, he loves me and gives me all the hugs and kisses I need, I know sometimes I am emotional and I get sad about myself and sometimes when we sleep I have nightmares and at one point anxiety attacks in the middle of the night, but there he is holding me close and keeping me safe, there is Jarrett loving me and kissing tears and fears away, he isn't really a boyfriend to me anymore, he is something much more meaningful and special to me, a word that is dear and kept close to my heart, and I know now... after what i went through today that he truly loves me, and he is one person I never have to be afraid of deserting me, i found love in someone that day I saw him walk by and even today I still want to look pretty when I see him, even though I know he will love me no matter what, I still want to go out of my way to bring him little gifts and dinner and write him secret notes that I stick on his walls or bedside table, yes I want to give him all the love i can give because I know that I can give and give and give and always I will receive and I will never be empty, I love you, thats all I can say. <3
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ruelette:
Cute story, thanks for sharing! xo
theblob:
now that was a good story