What i'm here for.
its like I can't control it.
Body dysmorphic disorder involves a preoccupation with some defect in the person's appearance. This defect becomes so important that the person feels a great deal of stress. In some cases, there is no defect present--only the idea that one is there. In either case, stress about the "defect" becomes powerful enough to keep the person from functioning normally.
Many times, the person with body dysmorphic disorder perceives a problem with a part of the face--nose, eyebrows, mouth, lips, teeth, or any facial feature--but it can be associated with other body parts. Regardless, a person with symptoms of BDD will often check his or her appearance in a mirror or any other reflective surface. This activity can consume hours of the person's day (American Psychiatric Association, 1994)
I guess deep down we all feel like our minor imperfections are seen and exploited by everyone we meet, sometimes i myself find it scary when someone is looking right at my face, or even photos of me and scrutinizing every single flaw that is me, I have always had this horrible inability to recognize myself as a beautiful person, spending even hours in a day pointing out every single part of myself that I so dearly wanted to change, I was never happy with myself to let people take my pictures, I would stand naked in the mirror going over every part of my body with so much disdain, and this sickness took hold of my life and held me back from so much, swimming with friends, wearing cute little shorts and shirts in the summer, no, I preferred to be hot and uncomfortable in the hot sun then be sensible and wear clothes that suited the weather.
I was sixteen when i came across suicidegirls.com, I viewed the beautiful pin up pictures of girls of every shape and size, some girls without hair! some covered in tattoos,I saw these beautiful women, so imperfect but truly beautiful and confident in a way that became clear to me was much better than being perfect, these women showed me that I can be beautiful too, maybe not in the conventional way, I may not be six feet tall and skin and bones, I may have metal in my face and ink on my body, I may not even have a perfect body, but fuck, i'm just as beautiful as any Americas next top model contestant and Suicidegirls really showed me that beauty is not perfection , beauty is what i am, what you are, what your friends are, beauty is every single girl in this world, there is so specification.
I am now 19 about to turn 20 and yes i still have my off days where my hair isn't right, my make up isn't as great as i'd like it to be, my legs haven't been shaved.... whatever... but i know that i am still a beautiful human being, not just outside but inside too.
I am here now because I want to be apart of this inspiration, and maybe girls will see my pictures and feel the same way and maybe they too will find happiness in themselves in this extraordinary example of self empowerment, just look at all the gorgeous and unconventional looking suicidegirls, not one girl looks the same.
its like I can't control it.
Body dysmorphic disorder involves a preoccupation with some defect in the person's appearance. This defect becomes so important that the person feels a great deal of stress. In some cases, there is no defect present--only the idea that one is there. In either case, stress about the "defect" becomes powerful enough to keep the person from functioning normally.
Many times, the person with body dysmorphic disorder perceives a problem with a part of the face--nose, eyebrows, mouth, lips, teeth, or any facial feature--but it can be associated with other body parts. Regardless, a person with symptoms of BDD will often check his or her appearance in a mirror or any other reflective surface. This activity can consume hours of the person's day (American Psychiatric Association, 1994)
I guess deep down we all feel like our minor imperfections are seen and exploited by everyone we meet, sometimes i myself find it scary when someone is looking right at my face, or even photos of me and scrutinizing every single flaw that is me, I have always had this horrible inability to recognize myself as a beautiful person, spending even hours in a day pointing out every single part of myself that I so dearly wanted to change, I was never happy with myself to let people take my pictures, I would stand naked in the mirror going over every part of my body with so much disdain, and this sickness took hold of my life and held me back from so much, swimming with friends, wearing cute little shorts and shirts in the summer, no, I preferred to be hot and uncomfortable in the hot sun then be sensible and wear clothes that suited the weather.
I was sixteen when i came across suicidegirls.com, I viewed the beautiful pin up pictures of girls of every shape and size, some girls without hair! some covered in tattoos,I saw these beautiful women, so imperfect but truly beautiful and confident in a way that became clear to me was much better than being perfect, these women showed me that I can be beautiful too, maybe not in the conventional way, I may not be six feet tall and skin and bones, I may have metal in my face and ink on my body, I may not even have a perfect body, but fuck, i'm just as beautiful as any Americas next top model contestant and Suicidegirls really showed me that beauty is not perfection , beauty is what i am, what you are, what your friends are, beauty is every single girl in this world, there is so specification.
I am now 19 about to turn 20 and yes i still have my off days where my hair isn't right, my make up isn't as great as i'd like it to be, my legs haven't been shaved.... whatever... but i know that i am still a beautiful human being, not just outside but inside too.
I am here now because I want to be apart of this inspiration, and maybe girls will see my pictures and feel the same way and maybe they too will find happiness in themselves in this extraordinary example of self empowerment, just look at all the gorgeous and unconventional looking suicidegirls, not one girl looks the same.
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You are so beautiful!