gregthespider

I'm looking for a word.

I don't think it exists, so I may have to make one up. Even so, it probably won't be satisfactory.

It has to encompass the extreme frustration, sexual and romatic, caused to me by a friend. I'm a hopeless romatic (read 'loser'). She drives me absolutely crazy, but I'm sure most of it is in my head, but I don't get to spend enough time with her to work this out. When I do spend time with her, I realise that I don't really love her, it's all in my head, but by the next time i see her, I've fallen for her again. Of course she knows none of this (and heaven forbid she ever found out - by would that make things awkward).

I think my heart gets bored easily, and has to be in love with someone. I just need to find someone else to keep it busy. Ideally someone who feels the same way, but I've yet to meet such a girl.

I think the word would be someting like "Gnarrghfft!", but would have to be supplemented by punching and inanimate object and then drinking a bottle of nicde red wine and watching a good movie (not a comedy).

I love the internet - so anonymous!