Time for a new journal...I thought today I would put up some lyrics from of our songs....its kinda depressing but oh well it is Friday the 13th after all 
As most of you know I am bi polar which gives me manic highs at times followed by huge lows ...they are actually not bad as of late so im feel lucky for that...this song is about a time when I doing so well with it and I couldnt see my way out of anything and tried to take my life....as you know I failed at that too and two years later I was cleaning up some things and found the note I left....this song is basically this note put to music....I figured at the least It would let people know that others feel that same way and have went on to achieve good things. We used to play it live but do not anymore cuz it just got to hard for mee ...but at any rate here it is...
"PARTING WORDS"
By the time you read this.. most likely i'll be gone
But first i will apologize to those i have done wrong
Will also ask forgiveness from those that I have loved
you've made my life so very rich im sorry i gave up
Im sorry mom I never was the son you always wanted
Im grateful for the life you gave
just tired of feeling haunted
To those ive met along the way an friends I hold most dear
Thanks for taking part...I wish you love and no more tears
im checkin out...im checkin out
ive had enuff its time to go
im checkin out...im checkin out
before I pull this trigger just know i love you so
im checkin out...im checkin out
ive had enuff yeah i wish you well
im checkin out...im checkin out
if you dont see me in heaven I guess i went to hell
im checkin out
last of all a few words to the girl who held my heart
you were all i ever dreramed of
even though we lived apart
I regret not ever holding you when you slept at night
or being there to dry your tears when something made you cry
I swear to you the hardest thing is leaving you the most
never again to hear you say I love you more than toast
the tears are flowing im so sorry if you find this wrong
but i cant take this anymore I love you party on
As most of you know I am bi polar which gives me manic highs at times followed by huge lows ...they are actually not bad as of late so im feel lucky for that...this song is about a time when I doing so well with it and I couldnt see my way out of anything and tried to take my life....as you know I failed at that too and two years later I was cleaning up some things and found the note I left....this song is basically this note put to music....I figured at the least It would let people know that others feel that same way and have went on to achieve good things. We used to play it live but do not anymore cuz it just got to hard for mee ...but at any rate here it is...
"PARTING WORDS"
By the time you read this.. most likely i'll be gone
But first i will apologize to those i have done wrong
Will also ask forgiveness from those that I have loved
you've made my life so very rich im sorry i gave up
Im sorry mom I never was the son you always wanted
Im grateful for the life you gave
just tired of feeling haunted
To those ive met along the way an friends I hold most dear
Thanks for taking part...I wish you love and no more tears
im checkin out...im checkin out
ive had enuff its time to go
im checkin out...im checkin out
before I pull this trigger just know i love you so
im checkin out...im checkin out
ive had enuff yeah i wish you well
im checkin out...im checkin out
if you dont see me in heaven I guess i went to hell
im checkin out
last of all a few words to the girl who held my heart
you were all i ever dreramed of
even though we lived apart
I regret not ever holding you when you slept at night
or being there to dry your tears when something made you cry
I swear to you the hardest thing is leaving you the most
never again to hear you say I love you more than toast
the tears are flowing im so sorry if you find this wrong
but i cant take this anymore I love you party on
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i want to hear it now . . .
be well,
ph
got a recording o' this??