greekdevils

You've no idea how badly I want to see her! Yet I still welcome in this rush of love feelings that I've wanted to feel now for years. I feel like I'm on a plain and the wind is blowing strong right in my face, and I stand against it with a huge grin on my face and my arms spread wide open. Life doesn't have any meaning without these types of feelings, whether bad or good. This is all in vain though, and like usual, I will fuck this up by opening up too quickly and scaring her away. Maybe there never was a chance anyway, but still, it always seems like there was. Now all I have to settle for is a glimpse, but even a glimpse feels like I"ve come a long way. I've been waiting for her now for ten years, I just didn't know it then that she would be who I would model my likings to. Now I saw her face in a picture, and I didn't even need that to remember what she looks like. Here's to hope, just another way to die a lonely fate.