It's so fucking hard having to keep your passion about someone a secret from them. Yet I always share my emotions with people I first meet right away and it never ends up going anywhere, so maybe this is a good start. It's been about three weeks now. I know she's changed a lot and there's no telling if I'd like who she is 'in...
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If only I could tell her how I really feel and how I felt. Its not simple and it must be handled carefully. Somedays, it feels as though I'm carrying a bomb and I don't have the confidence to keep holding on. I keep pushing myself towards an edge that I'm not so familiar with. I don't know the limits and I don't know the...
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Her choice of song, Coldplay. Her choice of pictures, family. Her face hasn't changed though throughout all these years. I simply gaze and wonder: is this the motivation I've been waiting for all along?
It feels so good to be 'revived'. I don't know where this 'I'm in love' feeling will end up,or how long it will last, but wherever it does, it just feels really good right now. I just hope I can ride this wave into something more positive for my health cause it deserves it. I've really given my body the cold shoulder for so long...
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You've no idea how badly I want to see her! Yet I still welcome in this rush of love feelings that I've wanted to feel now for years. I feel like I'm on a plain and the wind is blowing strong right in my face, and I stand against it with a huge grin on my face and my arms spread wide open. Life doesn't...
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I look at how other people my age are faring so far in this journey and realize I am so way behind. It really makes me even more depressed because I have yet to go through many of the tests that us humans usually go through and while I'm not broken yet, I continually push the limit. Next up on the horizon is a therapy...
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Gah...my laziness has led me to some dental trouble 
When will I get my act together? Nevertheless, there are good times ahead! 20 days until I go see how I would like to live my life. Experience.
When will I get my act together? Nevertheless, there are good times ahead! 20 days until I go see how I would like to live my life. Experience.
pinknightmare21:
I was a hole.com member tooo
pinknightmare21:
I think i was a few people on there. I used the chat board a lot back in 98' I think. Some names that come to mind are cherrygirl21, and orangecreamsicle21, an of course pinknightmare21. When it switched to kittieradio, I changed it to deragended easterbunny, but I cant find my membership on their anymore. No Courtney never replied to me... but it was so cool to see her interact with her fans!!
but it was so cool to see her interact with her fans!!I've heard that love is simply an addiction to the chemical that is realeased from the brain when you feel it. I however, find that logical, but still can't seem to grasp it yet.