Wow, it seems I only ever write in here when my lifes taken a turn for the melo dramatic lol... not that anyone other then myself really reads these. But I'll continue the fantasy of writing for an audience, so here we goooooooooooo.
So heres the recap of Jamie land since the last posting. Well I did move on with my life and get myself back into a great relationship with an old friend of 12 years... Lets call er E. We were best friends years ago when we first met, then drifted apart over the years. So we reconnected and sparks flew. Things grew and became serious both quickly and confortably.
We on a regular basis would talk and joke about our wedding, kids, house we were genuinely talking about buyig together. I had found my place, my home, my happily ever after. My arms and heart were full. Then out of the blue she began to emotionally shut me out. No hugs, no cuddles, no kisses... Pulling away from me at a family dinner when i went to gently rub her back which I always did.
When I approached her about what was wrong she dropped me with an unexpected bombshell, she was unsure of her life, future and having me in it. Initially she just said she was distant due to some depression which I can understand but as the weeks passed I knew things were not right. So 2 days after her revelations about an uncertain future, she left me alone and broken.
It's almost a month to the day since that happened. I'm actually doin very fucking good! I'm not lost, broken and distraught. Shit happens in life and this isn't my first big emotional defeat. Life will go on. I try to think of this as an opportunity to rediscover myself, learn who I really want to be and who I really want to spend my life with... and have some fun in the meantime. I'm looking to venture back into fet life style, perhaps find myself a lil sub or pet to keep me amused. Make some new friends and just enjoy the summer.
If anyone does happen to read this, leave me a comment. I'm just curious if there are any voyeurs out there for me lol
So heres the recap of Jamie land since the last posting. Well I did move on with my life and get myself back into a great relationship with an old friend of 12 years... Lets call er E. We were best friends years ago when we first met, then drifted apart over the years. So we reconnected and sparks flew. Things grew and became serious both quickly and confortably.
We on a regular basis would talk and joke about our wedding, kids, house we were genuinely talking about buyig together. I had found my place, my home, my happily ever after. My arms and heart were full. Then out of the blue she began to emotionally shut me out. No hugs, no cuddles, no kisses... Pulling away from me at a family dinner when i went to gently rub her back which I always did.
When I approached her about what was wrong she dropped me with an unexpected bombshell, she was unsure of her life, future and having me in it. Initially she just said she was distant due to some depression which I can understand but as the weeks passed I knew things were not right. So 2 days after her revelations about an uncertain future, she left me alone and broken.
It's almost a month to the day since that happened. I'm actually doin very fucking good! I'm not lost, broken and distraught. Shit happens in life and this isn't my first big emotional defeat. Life will go on. I try to think of this as an opportunity to rediscover myself, learn who I really want to be and who I really want to spend my life with... and have some fun in the meantime. I'm looking to venture back into fet life style, perhaps find myself a lil sub or pet to keep me amused. Make some new friends and just enjoy the summer.
If anyone does happen to read this, leave me a comment. I'm just curious if there are any voyeurs out there for me lol