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I'm trying to get ready to make a run at the SCJD (Sun Certified Java Developer) test... one step up from my last test, the SCJP, a bit over a year ago at this point. Work feels very... unsettled, so getting that done will be a way both of feeling a bit more secure, and maybe, in actuality, being a little more so (if not at my current job, it at least helps keep me marketable).

These times are just uneasy for me. I always feel like I am running behind, in everything. They say life/success is a journey, not a destination... but I'd like a journey that has some good destinations along the way...

And yet, I also want to be able to stay *here*. In many senses...




Talk to me, peoples... it feels so quiet around here lately.


Edit:
You know what I find depressing, at least a little? Blind friend requests... you know, the kind where it's obvious that the requester has never spent the least time reading anything you've written. Every time, it fools me... I think it is someone that might have enjoyed one of my comments, or something I might have said on here... and it's not. Just someone looking for votes.

Oh, well.


Further Edit:

The SCJD exam is not so much an exam as a project (although it has an exam part to it, as well).
When I'm a bit further along, I'll need testers- no technical knowledge required (in fact some of the testers ideally should be comepletely non-technical). This is a few months off, probably... but would anyone around here be up for spending an hour or so pounding on one of my programs, trying to break it?