graycen

awwww sweetheart...

I want to huggles you right now and make you feel better. Perhaps it was a Goddess 2x4--- but don't think of it as a thing telling you that you fucked up... Think of it as a way of saying "I understand your feelings, but you shouldn't do this..." and making you go through all of that was to show you why.

I do know how you feel though. Hell.. every time I come onto SG, I try so desperately hard not to go click on my ex's profile and see how he is. I've stopped leaving comments for him, but still, on an almost daily basis, I check his journal to see if he's ok. I know I shouldn't... and each time it breaks my heart and I feel almost dirty for breaking my promise to myself... but I just have to. At least I'm not contacting him anymore though.. I just read his journal.

but in other news... I'm happy.... smitten in fact. But this happiness will be short lived sadly. Not for any reason that we can control though. I think I'm truly starting to hate the military.... first I had no father until I was in like 3rd or 4th grade becase he was always gone... now it's taking away the boy that's actually giving me my own piece of happiness. Oh well. I still have him till the 27th... but that's so close...

oh... by the way... happy holidays!! blessed be..

What does one do when faced with being utterly alone for the long holiday weekend? The exact same thing that I'm doing now... finding huggles online from friends....

gray-baby I need a hug.

I hope things start feeling better for you. At least you don't have the additions of school and papers to do.. which I have.. ugh.. I don't want to do this stuff.

I just desperately need a cuddle right now.

I suggest you and renegadefuzz cuddle together....and if you need another cuddler I am in as I too will be alone for the weekend

Great! Upbeat days rock!!! I am looking forward to my Groundhogs day card, as long as I don't start waking up on Groundhogs day over and over

edit: Ps. I just read the current crush..Zach Braff!!! That's awesome!

[Edited on Dec 20, 2005 11:51AM]

hehehe thanks for laughing at the tbone rug thing.

at least one of us is having an upbeat day! go you! i have a crush on zach braff too, noticing that Staque pointed it out. but then doesnt every girl that digs the indierock?

You did great! I know the feeling, and I am certainly in your shoes right now in that I am doing everything I can not to backslide and it is tough, but so far so good


edit: ps. you need some pictures up...they all disappeared!!!

[Edited on Dec 19, 2005 4:55PM]

happy belated -shrug-

sounds rad btw.
-later-

wearing: dirty jeans, 80's cut up sorority t-shirt, numerous rubber wristbands
reading: Asimov's guide to the Complete Works of Shakespeare (I'm working on Hamlet, III.ii)
making: fetticcini alfredo
drinking: iced tea
feeling: hungover.

(sorry.. I liked your little format thingy)

how ya been? The final went horribly shitty. As I like to say, it was a beautiful 500 foot swan dive unto the rocks below. Always fun. I need to write more papers....

[Edited on Dec 17, 2005 1:37PM]

happy belated...i tried to call and left you a message but no reply...hope you were out celebrating!

hey red...just wanted to say hi and hope all is ok. i tried numerous times this last weekend to reach you, but nothing. what's going on? hope you had a memorable birthday with your kids. wish we could've gotten together. it's good to know that at least you're alive. hope your holidays are joyous. much love and many blessings, e.

I think you are just Beautiful...I didn't see anything broken.

and you're going to heal up to be even more Beautiful

sorry you felt so bad and alone, but yay for you in getting yourself through it. i know we're kinda far apart and have our own schedules and stuff, but i'm here to chat and would love to get together again soon. miss you lots!

I'm not sure. Rachel was there and saw me before Bridget got there, but she didn't come up and talk to me until Bridget showed up. After she got there, the next time I went up to the bar alone, Rachel isolated me away from my friends to talk to me.
Yeah, I'd go for a movie. There are a lot of movies I want to see. Syriana, Jarhead, Good Night and Good Luck, Walk the Line, Aeon Flux, Narnia... of course I don't really know which of those are out now, which aren't in theaters yet, and which aren't in theaters any more. What did you have in mind?

Well, what the F-U-C-K does she have to be jealous about? She's the one who ditched me. She could have me back in a second if she wanted. If she doesn't want me, what's her problem with me living my life. Grrr. Women piss me off so much most of the time. They want to have everything at the same time. Do you still have my number? Call me.

hey long time no talk...i miss ya! hope we can get together sometime soon. what you up to next weekend? 9th or something like that? we need to get together! email me!

i am disappearing i cancelled my membershp january i think call/email if you want to hang out or if you want to know about what happened when i ran into that bitch rachel tonight and completely fell for her all over again

Wow... it must be hard going through that on the holiday. But I guess if it gives you some closure and helps you move on, you have to do what you have to do.

It's good to see you are keeping a positive outlook on life though.

Actually, it's an emu. Not sure what highway that is...