so i finished Lamb. it was a good book... and although it wasnt written to change anyones perspective on religion... it has made me take a look at how i treat others. mainly on the subject of forgiveness...because i think i'm pretty staunch with that. i tend to hold things against people...and build up a list of their evils.
i cant help but be hurt...but at the same time, i know ive done similar stuff to people... but only back in HS.
towards the end of the book when Josh AKA jesus gets crucified..his friends are watching... and Judeus is found out to be the one that betrayed jesus.. biff goes and kills him then kills himself. i dont know why but this part in the book really made me think...
::prepares to go into religious tangent due to insomnia and feeling empty::
how could jesus forgive people for so many wrong things? not the least of which is his murder.
on a smaller scale, he taught that everyone gets to come into the kingdom, not just jews, but everyone, harlets, gentiles, lepers, etc.. everyone accepted with all their faults, sins, and wrongs, without judgment.
why do i feel like if i forgive my friends for hurting me repeatidly that i am sacrificing myself? (on a side tangent, Mrs. T downstairs has her FUCKING TV up again... GOD DAMN YOU MRS T! TURN THAT SHIT DOWN!)
I cant help but think that if i continue to be friends with these people that i am only discounting myself by letting other people hurt me....but they can only hurt me as much as i let them right?
God how do you forgive?
someone teach me how to let go..
I think the only thing i can do is let them know when they hurt me, and let it go. i cant hold onto it all.... and i wouldnt want someone to do that too me. theres no trust so i guess all that is left to do is start from scratch and try to build everything over again.
i cant help but be hurt...but at the same time, i know ive done similar stuff to people... but only back in HS.
towards the end of the book when Josh AKA jesus gets crucified..his friends are watching... and Judeus is found out to be the one that betrayed jesus.. biff goes and kills him then kills himself. i dont know why but this part in the book really made me think...
::prepares to go into religious tangent due to insomnia and feeling empty::
how could jesus forgive people for so many wrong things? not the least of which is his murder.
on a smaller scale, he taught that everyone gets to come into the kingdom, not just jews, but everyone, harlets, gentiles, lepers, etc.. everyone accepted with all their faults, sins, and wrongs, without judgment.
why do i feel like if i forgive my friends for hurting me repeatidly that i am sacrificing myself? (on a side tangent, Mrs. T downstairs has her FUCKING TV up again... GOD DAMN YOU MRS T! TURN THAT SHIT DOWN!)
I cant help but think that if i continue to be friends with these people that i am only discounting myself by letting other people hurt me....but they can only hurt me as much as i let them right?
God how do you forgive?
someone teach me how to let go..
I think the only thing i can do is let them know when they hurt me, and let it go. i cant hold onto it all.... and i wouldnt want someone to do that too me. theres no trust so i guess all that is left to do is start from scratch and try to build everything over again.
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lucky1336929:
it seems like the more mistakes i make in life, the easier it is for me to forgive other people for theirs. im definitely a happier person since ive quit staying mad at people when they screw me. for me, at some point i began to realize that staying mad was pointless and a waste of energy. im a better person now, i think.
fragile21:
I think when you forgive someone that you are basically sacrificing yourself. You have to let yourself open again to the possibility that you'll get hurt by those same people. Now, I don't know how to teach anyone to forgive because I have a hard time doing that myself. I usually go through a phaze where I'll be really pissed off and hurt to where I become indifferent. This does depend on what was done to me. If it's something small then I can usually let it go, but if I feel like I'm being treated like shit then that's a whole other thing. I think your point at the end is very true. That's probably the best way to go about forgiveness.