grayblue

tip-toing like a child trying to glimpse santa
i worry that i may not be dreaming anymore.
everyday another step.
heart fading.
worried that i may be falling again.
worried that the fall is more than just a trough in the wave.
scared. very scared.
every second of every day i feel like i'm on the verge.
of tears.
of greatness.
of insanity.
of a breakdown.
of love.
of death.
of art.
of truth.
tiptoing. scared of what's there. all i want to do is stomp.
tired. very tired.
nothing in me burns anymore.
the fire in my eyes
the fire in my heart
the fire in my soul.
the morning coals of a campfire.
lost. very lost.