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syracuse, indy & b-town, in

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Thursday Apr 03, 2003

Apr 3, 2003
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tip-toing like a child trying to glimpse santa
i worry that i may not be dreaming anymore.
everyday another step.
heart fading.
worried that i may be falling again.
worried that the fall is more than just a trough in the wave.
scared. very scared.
every second of every day i feel like i'm on the verge.
of tears.
of greatness.
of insanity.
of a breakdown.
of love.
of death.
of art.
of truth.
tiptoing. scared of what's there. all i want to do is stomp.
tired. very tired.
nothing in me burns anymore.
the fire in my eyes
the fire in my heart
the fire in my soul.
the morning coals of a campfire.
lost. very lost.

VIEW 7 of 7 COMMENTS
elisabeth:
I go from being online all the time to having sporadic access at best. I'm ok tho I think, hope to be on AIM soon to chat. Hope all is well smile
Apr 7, 2003
freckle:
back back back!!!
Apr 9, 2003

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