just woke up.
had a dream.
dreamt of her.
she was older... looked good.
she had joined a band.
most of the songs were about me.
and how much she hated me.
and how she thought all of my work was horrible.
and about how stupid i actually am.
how i have no abilities.
and all i wanted to do was make her love me again.
because i couldn't stand the thought of her hating me.
and for 45 minutes i laid in bed.
half asleep.
and it kept coming back to me.
i lay there writhing and thrashing.
twitching around.
all those thoughts from the dream.
like a bullfighter's sword and spear.
stabbing and slashing at me.
i couldn't make it stop.
had a dream.
dreamt of her.
she was older... looked good.
she had joined a band.
most of the songs were about me.
and how much she hated me.
and how she thought all of my work was horrible.
and about how stupid i actually am.
how i have no abilities.
and all i wanted to do was make her love me again.
because i couldn't stand the thought of her hating me.
and for 45 minutes i laid in bed.
half asleep.
and it kept coming back to me.
i lay there writhing and thrashing.
twitching around.
all those thoughts from the dream.
like a bullfighter's sword and spear.
stabbing and slashing at me.
i couldn't make it stop.
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i have some crazy ass dreams, but i always forget as soon as i wake up
men and women.. everyone...
it's hard... sometimes I feel like cutting my balls
off rather than play these games...
[Edited on Feb 26, 2003]