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Sunday Oct 05, 2003

Oct 4, 2003
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bad night.

i shouldn't have fallen in love with her nearly a year ago.

i shouldn't have seen her at my bar tonight.

i shouldn't have said hello.

i should've recognized that she was trying to not be around me.

i shouldn't have made her that cd last winter.

i shouldn't have met her.

i shouldn't have spent time with her.

i shouldn't have let her break my heart.

once last winter. again tonight.

i shouldn't have found her at last call to give her my number.

i shouldn't have walked away from the fight her boyfriend tried to pick.

i should've known, as i've always known, that i am destined to be alone.

i should've know that i am a cold, self-centered, heartless prick of a man.

i shouldn't let meaningless, yet meaningful bullshit get to me like this.

i should know better.
period.
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invisigirl:
everything that has happened in your life up to this point has made you who you are today. there is no room for regret. only learning and growing.

no one is destined to be alone. it just takes these negative experiences to make us learn some important things about ourselves before we are ready to share ourselves with someone else.
smile
Oct 5, 2003
freckle:
dearie... frown
Oct 5, 2003

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